Death by Poetry
I
Crimson hands
Cold stone
Glazed eyes
A kiss goodbye
He watched
As life fled
A final breath
All agony is dead
He rose again
Ashes burning
A silent vow
To never look back
A new man,
From the corpse
Now rotting in a grave
Locked inside his mind
When the next
Murder shall rise,
He shall cleanse
Himself once more.
II
Do you remember when
You were innocent,
Oh, so innocent.
Crying at the death of a goldfish?
Do you remember when
Life was fun,
Oh, so fun
Running for hours, barefoot in the grass?
Do you remember when
The world was small,
Oh, so small
Wondering what would become of it?
Do you remember when
You were loved,
Oh, so loved
Before you realized those gestures did not mean love?
Do you remember when
The flowers wilted
The fun had stopped,
And the world became cold and devoid of love?
I do.
III
I see your smile,
Masking the pain;
I wonder to myself
will you ever be the same?
I know,
I cannot bring you the sunshine
I know,
Someone hurt you, broke you, scarred you.
But would you believe in love?
I know,
You're a star, crashing to the earth.
I know,
You're the sun, burning herself to nothing for others.
I know,
You're tired and scared and lost and hopeless.
I know,
I see it in your eyes.
I know,
I see it behind those long sleeves you wear.
I know,
I see it in that final breath you took.
But do you know?
Do you know,
Someone prayed for hours every night for you?
Do you know,
Someone cried to sleep when they lost you?
Do you know,
No one's life will be the same without you?
Do you know,
You were deeply loved from a distance?
Do you know,
How missed you are since you left us?
I know,
Now, you are someone's guardian angel,
Shielding them from the same darkness that took you away.
I know,
Because I feel you every time I touch that blade.
Clear Night January Snow
Clear night.
Star filled skies.
Against an ebon curtain.
The full yellow moon.
Hanging in the sky.
Like a bright lantern.
Cold wind.
That feels of winter.
Rustling leaves.
Raising spirits.
Chilling the soul.
The mountains
In the shadow of the moon.
Rising like spires.
From mother earth.
towards the heavens.
January snow falls.
Softly like silk.
On a newly washed Body.
A soft shimmering sheen.
Against the dull Grey.
Of winters deep slumber.
Touched by.
The warmth of the sun.
Beads of pearl.
Returning to.
The dull Grey.
Of winters deep slumber.
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Resentment
Don't forgive me when I'm gone
Keep your grudges as gold
Though eventually life will move on,
do unto my memory hold.
As much as I wish I could stay
It's not a realistic request
For life's debt is more than I can pay
And my bones ache for rest.
My eyes to become the flowers
My feet to become the thorns
My hands to still by the hour's
Rush to become the morn.
Do not weep for me instead
Stand at my grave with spite
Hate me for the life I had led
For I won't meet you in dawns light.
-Poem I heard in a dream
Training (Kaybai Stories)
“No, no, no. You need to have your feet like this,” Lerah said as she nudged Kaybai’s foot with her own, so that his back foot was perpendicular to his front.
“But-”
“I said what I said.. I don’t care what those fools taught you. They gave you to me, and so I will teach you how to fight my way.”
Lerah walked around him, studying his pose. He heard her feet crossing the smooth stones behind him.
She hummed. “Bend your knees a little more.”
He wobbled as his aching feet struggled to learn the new position. Kaybai was certain that his feet would be black and blue by the next day.
Lerah rammed into his side, sending him careening into the ground. He was more surprised than hurt, but his hip throbbed where it hit the stone. Using one of the pillars, Kaybai pulled himself up to face his unimpressed mentor.
“You lost your center.”
He sighed, his face red and mouth pinched with embarressment. He picked himself up once more, and set himself in the stance that Lerah was trying to teach him. It felt odd and unnatural, and the old woman once again corrected his posture. He was more aware than ever of her presence. Kaybai waited for the strike that would inevitably come. He would be prepared this time.
Her ankle swept under his legs. He was on the ground, again, with the breath knocked out of him. He lay gasping and all that he could comprehend through the pain and embarrassment were the fractals carved in the temple ceiling. It was easy to get lost in the spirals. It took several minutes until Kaybai sat up again, but when he did, his mentor was waiting for him.
“I think we’ve done enough for now,” she said as she helped him to his feet.
Kaybai only nodded, avoiding Lerah’s eyes. The walk back to their shelter was steeped in tense silence, and the silence continued even after they ate. It was only when they were heading to their separate cots that Lerah spoke.
She cleared her throat. He heard the rustle of fabric as she suddenly began to fidget with her blanket. “You know, you did well today.”
He didn’t say anything in response. What was he supposed to say to that, anyway? Her words weren’t true. He failed to hold his ground against her.
Kaybai sat at the edge of his cot, watching her stoke the dying embers back into a fire in the metal stove. He mulled over her words he nodded off, watching her silhouette against the bright orange flames.
#fantasy #dungeonsanddragons #dnd
i don’t hate you
i don’t miss you, don’t get me wrong
but i don’t know what to write about
if you’re not the reason behind the song
all i wanted to do was move on
and let the storm clouds clear out
but i’m scared approaching this new dawn
and i don’t know what to do if you’re really gone
before i got better, i thought i’d curse your name forever
i thought i’d cry every night for the rest of my life
thought i’d scream in the rain because of all the pain
but i don’t know who i am; this was never part of the plan
i always counted on getting over it, but i guess i never let myself admit
that i don’t know what to do if i don’t hate you
i don’t know what to do if i don’t hate you