My Living Nightmare
His lips were soft as they brushed sweetly against mine. I could feel his breath tickle my skin as I curled in close to him. His big arms wrapped around me tightly, pulling me in closely. He whispered in my ear "I love you. I love you so much." I could feel my chest tightening, my cheeks hurting from this never ending smile. I look deep into his brown eyes and tell him how much j love him back. I see a smile stream across his face just before we kiss again. We laid there on my bed together, just enjoying the heavenly moment, but then I began to hear a buzzing sound.
My alarm.
I awake and he's not there. The bed I empty, cold. Reality hits me like a ton of bricks, he dumped me last month. The joy in my heart sinks and a chill crawls through my skin. I can still hear him saying my name and how much he loves me. My eyes begin to sting from my tears welling up. I can't stop the pain I feel ripping me apart from the inside out. I grip my pillow tightly and still feel him from my dream. I wale loudly into my pillow and cry because he's still in my dreams every night which is my only escape from this living nightmare.
Ghost at Night
Unspoken and unseen,
But I feel your ever lurking presence,
Watching, waiting.
Do you know I know your there?
Do you know I hide my fear of you,
To lie to myself that I'm alright,
In hopes I get somesome form of sanity and sleep?
Every night we do this dance,
You waiting there
And I act as though you're not.
Every night I feel you there
And every night I act as though I'm clueless to your over bearing presence.
I know your there, but why?
I can't hear you.
I can't see you.
But I feel you.
Please, just leave.
Please, no more.
Please, just please, go.
Love You in Your Sleep
The sound of your slumber breathing brings me to a place of joy I never knew until that very moment.
Your face, serene, as you drift into sleep, reminds me that the innocence lost to this harsh world can all be forgotten in dreams.
Your unconscious murmurs spark a longing in my heart, and I cannot help but hold you, protecting you until you've awoken again.
My love for you grows as you sleep, blossoming into something I'm not sure of, but cannot fight or stop it.
My love for you is something like no other, something I never knew could be reality, until it happened.
I love you. Please, tell me you love me too.
Alone Tonight with Just My Burning Thoughts of You
I lay here alone again tonight in this bed that seems too big and too cold now and I can't figure out where things went wrong for us. My only thought is of you, as though the only reason I draw breath now is just in hopes to see you again, to kiss you again, to say I love you just one more time. Each tear is proof of my love of you and my whole body aches with an undeniable thirst to hold you once more, to look into your beautiful eyes and see a future for myself again.