Little Victory
I didn't climb the tallest mountain in the world
And take a selfie at the summit,
I didn't win a gold medal,either,
At this year's Olympics.
I didn't go on Top Model
Or Dancing with the Stars.
But what I did do
Out-did them all.
Today I went shopping
And bought a new belt.
My previous is now too big
Which means a goal has been met.
Thank You
They say "He will never give you more than you can handle."
Sometimes I feel He has more faith in me than I do myself.
Sometimes it's just too much
I cry silently
Let the tears flow down my face
Breathing labored
Rapid.
I can't do this.
And yet, here I am!
Obstacle after obstacle
Fear and Pain.
Loss.
Failure.
I conquered them all.
He believed in me more than I did myself.
Now I am stronger.
I am wiser.
I am confident!
Sometimes all we need is a little nudge to show us
We could do it all by ourselves.
when the dust settled
thoughts suffocate me
silences overwhelm me
the voices in my head i can't escape
when i close my eyes there you are
your beautiful face
so close but far far away
i reach out for you
longing for your touch
only to be denied your love
chills travel down my spine
tears fill my eyes
oh the aching i feel
inside
emptiness that cant be filled
laughter no longer has a place
joy is no longer here
sometimes i think i hear your voice
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
only to wake up to what used to be
just a memory of you dear
the last thing you asked me
"will you forget me when im gone"
never
you made your country proud
but it was time for you to go home
i will miss you forever and always
my protector
my friend
my love
my other half
my happiness
my strength
my everything
Apocalypse
Is this what the world has become
A savage land of miscreants
Who couldn't give a damn about the person beside him,
Blood shed over possessions
Over material things
While blood shed from the veins
Of those slain
By the very hands of those in pain
A vicious cycle
Never ending
Those who are suppose to protect us
Are the very people who neglect us
Who murder us and defile our names
Whom we put our faith into blindly
Only to be beaten
And battered
And left out to dry
Like an Outcast
Is my life less significant
That I should be treated as such.
Bruised physically and mentally
Emotionally.
But this is the world I have come to know.
I have learned to accept death
And pain
An everyday emotion
It's normal.
This is what the world had become.
Reality
Sometimes I sit and reminiscence
Hopin',
Wishin',
Longingin'.
To that time when i was six years old
And had the world to conquer.
One day I was a doctor
Saving lives
A true superhero in disguise.
A heart beating in my hands
Or a baby beginning their life.
The next day I was an astronaut
Ready to save the planet
From meteors
To Invasions
Or sometimes,
To see the world from a new perspective.
Here I am
After so many moons
So many birthdays
So many years
And I am not yet a Doctor
Nor an astronaut
Or Superhero.
Has my life been a waste?
What am I to accomplish?
The answer I will never know.
But I am happy
And hopeful
And free
And that's what life means to me.