It’s been over a month since you found her, and only hours since your bed and clothes have disappeared from my life forever

It’s been a few weeks since I was paralyzed with heartbreak, but I still cry a lot

I am so overwhelmed with time and emotions and events.

I am just one stagnant soul watching life unfold fleetingly and abruptly, and my heart and mind and body are all one lost gooey mess it feels like

I don’t know what to make of the thoughts in my head but you’ve left a bitter taste in my mouth

A bitter taste im grateful you left, I needed to hurt from you one last time

One last time to confirm that I will always be better off without your bed and clothes around, your scent and habits

I am naked and alone

I am vulnerable and yet brave and strong all at once

So much hope and inspiration

And so much fear laying in front of me

This is a beginning to a new end, a page turned.

Hello

It’s always nights turning into mornings that make me the most sick

The most unsettled

And I love and hate these nights because I have always had a tendency of letting my pain consume me

But this time is different

Because there’s parts of me fighting back

And I am at a war in my heart and mind

As I lose sleep and can’t eat

And fight the creeping thoughts that attempt to pull me under

I always go under

But the water is less deep this time and I can touch

Making a breakthrough

She'll get a hold on you believe it 

Like no other 

Before you know it you'll be on your knees 

She's an easy lover 

She'll take your heart but you won't feel it 

She's like no other 

And I'm just trying to make you see

She's the kind of girl you dream of 

Dream of keeping hold of 

You'd better forget it 

You'll never get it 

She will play around and leave you 

Leave you and deceive you 

-Easy lover. Phil Collins.

David visibly flinched as he watched a group of almost adults not follow the instructions ordered by the beautiful brunette in army issued clothing. He watched as one was taken to the ground with a knee to the groin. One taken down by a sharp jolt of electricity from the woman's taser and one slowly followed suit. Carefully dropping to his knees and mentally wishing for no pain. He succeeded.

From that particular checkpoint all males were made to crawl. David was getting closer and closer to the checkpoint and his heart raced. A number of officers soon formed a group as it became obvious they'd have trouble with more than a few.

He could hear his friends as though they were far away. Laughing at the scene ahead of them. Preparing for the games ahead. They must be stupid. They don't think it's real.

“On your knees!” the brunette barked. Her baton raised at the ready.

His closest friend, Alfie went first and with a smirk responded to the order dealt to him. “Alright then my lovely…” he bent at the waist and slowly began to drop to his knees before raising his face to meet hers. “You're gonna get on your knees after though, right? Give me a good gobble!”

His smile was still fresh when with a smile, she swung the heavy black baton his way. Cracking the weapon into his face and dropping the poor man to his knees. He screams out, clutching his bloody nose, warbled noises exited his throat. His friends still laughed.

“Fucking hell! Alfies in on it.

“Who knew?”

“He's a damn good actor!”

They're stupid! If any of them had taken the time to look at David, they'd have seen his shock. His fear. The incredulous look on his face showed them everything they needed to know. This was real. And so very terrifying.

But they didn't look back at their friend. They watched on in excited glee as Alfie was grabbed by the balls and shoved into the arms of another before being dragged away. Trying hard to keep up with the woman ragging him along the sand by his hair.

It took another 15 minutes until they realised the severity of the situation. Alfie bled a lot. Most of the others were forced to crawl in a similar fashion to everybody before them, but AD was different. He shouted he fought and he called the female gods before him, awful insulting names. He wasn't one to be pushed around and he certainly wasn't going to be forced to crawl by a woman!

They laughed at his anger which only infuriated him more. They hit him and spat on him. They pulled his hair and stripped him of his clothes.

“That was one privilege removed already!” a curvy blonde with large breasts yelled into his face. She grabbed his shaggy brown hair and pulled him with an almighty strength to shove his face into her tits. She held him there as he struggled against her. Another woman took revenge on his attitude as he tried in vain to escape the blondes clutches. He scratched at her arms as her huge tits took his breath.

The small petite Japanese lady with the tiny waist and funky pixi cut had a sadistic violence that you wouldn't think could fit in such a small, cute package. Her lips stretched into a malicious grin as she again snapped her hand out and shot electric currents between the man's legs. She was enjoying herself as the majority of guests stared in horror. It was just as she positioned her baton at ADs rear hole that she was interrupted.

“That's enough Akari! I want our guests in and taught rules before you start cheating your fun out of them.”

The woman appeared from the smallest of the cabins nearby. Her pale face and blue black hair should have made her look dealthy…  it didn't. She beckoned attention and each woman turned their head towards her.

She stalked forward with a swish of her hips.  Her bare feet leaving prints in the sand and her flowing black gown cleaning them up again. She was beautiful. She slowly allowed her eyes to traipse along the gathering of people before they stopped at David.

“You can come with me.” Her voice was calm but demanding. She didn't ask. She ordered. She just did it nicely. As she turned and walked away. He felt himself follow her like he was a puppet and she pulled his strings.

He was enamoured.

He feared for his life.