April 1, 2016
Can you tell I've been crying for weeks now? That I've had this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach because I knew things with you weren't ok. Every time I thought About you I felt sick, couldn't eat, sleep, think. Even when I was with you I felt empty, nothing, cold. Not that I was empty, but because YOU were empty. I felt it for a long time, but I ignored it. I would look in your eyes and I couldn't find you. And they are such gorgeous eyes to be so empty. They should be full of life, love, and possibilities. You deserve to be loved for who you are, and I was so ready to love you, so ready, and I'm sorry...
March 16, 2016
I will bare my soul, give you my all, my everything, I'm yours, do what you will but be gentle and kind, I am broken from the inside out, I am insecure and sad, so sad, so don't lure me in unless your intentions are pure, but if they aren't, I will fall anyway, cause I'm weak and fragile and I will stay.
I think about you when I'm hungover, when I'm emotional, you have consumed my thoughts since the first day I met you, you crawled inside my mind and decided to make a home, I don't quite understand why, why you decided to shake up my fucking life, why you came without a warning label, I don't think I've met anyone like you before, the way you were so eager to have me than just pushed me out the door, I honestly can't fucking take this anymore...