Pushed
Pushed a lot
Left Right Center Forward
Got confused a lot
Thinking was going the right way
So why is it feeling wrong
Someone is shining a ray
Feeling is bright and strong
Will be following the light
Direction doesn't matter
Was just walking the road
Now I am enjoying the journey
Doesn't matter reaching the destiney anymore.....
Chapter 2
Natasha
Ben had shared his secret with me. I was happy that he at least trusted me with his secret. I was confused as hell. It was like I am dreaming and my mind had made up this ridiculous story. I pinched myself in my arm. No it was not a dream. It still felt like a joke. I had looked in to his eyes and I only saw truth in them. What should I do in this situation? I had so many questions that I had to ask him. I want my answers first and then I was going to decide what to do.
I was exhausted and I hadn't slept for the whole night. So I decided I will get some rest first. I fell asleep instantly. I woke up in the afternoon. A good night sleep has relaxed me and my nerves. I decided to give a call to Ben and ask him to come over. So I gave him a call
"Hello"
"Thank god Natasha you called me. I am going crazy over here. I swear to god I was telling you the truth. I wouldn't joke about this. Please let me explain. If you want space I will give you. But don't cut me out. Please talk to me" he was rambling on the phone. He was sounding desperate.
"Will you shut up for a second. Come over to the apartment. I want to talk to you. I have some questions".
"I will answer your every question. I will be at the apartment in 20 min"
"OK." With that I hanged up.
It was lot to process. But the truth was that I loved him. I was hurting inside but I knew we had to talk through this. I wanted him to explain things out. He arrived at the apartment after 20 min.
"Hi come inside"
"Hi". He was looking distraught. He didn't know what to do next. He was even looking a little scared.
"I want you to know that I believe you. It may look foolish to some people but I know you are telling the truth. I am going to accept it. But before that I have few questions".
"Ya baby, ask me anything"
"So whatever you told me about yourself was just a lie? About yourself and about your identity? It's like I don't know you anymore. Who are you really Ben? Is it your real name or it was just part of your fake identity" He flinched by my words.
"My full name is Benjamin Carter Noah. I belong from the royal family of Noah that rules one of the Kingdoms or you can say the last remaining kingdom of Mars".
Oh shit!! He was forthcoming with some information. I thought he wouldn't tell me all this. Tell me the crap like I am not allowed to do that or sworn to secrecy.. Blah... Blah.. Blah... Why was he doing this? Telling me his real identity?
"So you are a King?" I said with disbelief. It was a lot to take in. I am going to get a headache.
"No my father is the king over there. I am the Prince" he said like it was the world's most responsible job.
"So you are a spoilt little brat of Mars. The Casanova. Who don't give a crap of other people's feeling? I was just a experimental subject to you?" I said with anger in my voice. I was going to cry. My eyes were filling up with unshed tears. I was angry and hurting. The more information he divulged the more I think that it was just all an act, just an experiment.
"Oh God Natasha. I am not a spoilt brat. You are not some experiment to me. You are my everything. I Love you Natasha. I wanted you to know everything about me. I want you to love me as I am. That's why I told my biggest secret to you. I just didn't want this thing to come between us. Don't cry Natasha. I can't see you hurting like this". He came towards me and took my face in his hands. He rested his forehead on mine and looked in my eyes and said "I love you Natasha. I can't lose you. I can't live without in my life".
Tears were running down my face and I started sobbing. "You are the one you hurt me Ben" I slowly said to him.
"I know sweetheart. It pains me see you like this. I couldn't contemplate in words how I am feeling right knowing that you are crying because of me".
"It's alright that I am hurting now. I don't think so this relationship will work" he tried to stop me. But I shushed him and continued "let me finish. You are here on a mission. And after that you will leave earth and me behind. I will get hurt than more. I love you Ben and when you leave I will a mess. I want to avoid all that".
He stayed silent for a while. He was looking a little helpless as if he knew if it comes to choosing me or his mission, he will choose his mission. This revelation was another blow for me. It was paining a lot. I had kept myself guarded from all this for a long time. I knew that relationships always end like this. One time I have let my guard down and this happened. We can never be together. I thought he was the one for me, that we will stay forever like this. Those dreams are shattered now.
"I will never leave you behind. I promise". He said with determination in his voice. "I am not saying it so that you remain with me for now. I want you forever in my life. You are the breath that I take. You are the most important thing in my life. I will choose you over anything" He promised me. He than mashed his lips to mine. He was kissing me with passion and love. He poured his promise, love and adoration in to this kiss. The kiss was a promise and determination that he will not leave me ever. He was feeling my mouth and lips. He was everywhere now. In my heart and my soul. He just ruined me for anybody else. Nobody will be like him in my life ever.
His kiss was the assurance that I needed. He stopped and looked into my eyes.There was sincerity in his words and eyes. My heart just melted with that mindblowing kiss. Now I was just a puddle. I didn't care about the future anymore. I wanted to live in the present with him. I believed him completely.
"I love you Ben. Just don't leave me. I believe you" I stood on my toes and with a smile just pecked his lip. I wanted more of him. but controlled myself.
"I love you too. This means you are not breaking up with me?" he asked me cautiously.
"No I am not. But on one condition" he was taken aback a little.
"Anything babe. I will accept it". He didn't think twice before answering me.
"You have to tell me everything about yourself. No more secrets between us. I promise in return that I will not tell a single soul about this ever".
"I know you will not tell anybody Sweetheart. I trust you completely and blindly".
"You shouldn't trust us human beings so easily it can be hazardous. Someone can reveal your secret accidently" I said teasingly.
"It's too late for that kind of advice. I already told my secret to a human being". He continued with a smirk. He kissed me again, that was all the assurance I wanted for the time being.
After that he told me everything about his research, his mission, his life back home in Mars and lastly his problems. I believed him completely back then. He was so promising, so caring and understanding that I believed it. I was a fool. I shouldn't have let my guard down.
He left me. He broke his promise. He is back now. I will just help him with his problem. Nothing else. I will not get weak this time; I will not let my guard down. This time I will not let him hurt me. He will not get past my wall. I will not believe him and his words. It's a promise I am intending to keep around him. He cant hurt me this time.
Chapter 1
Natasha
It was a beautiful day, but a shitty morning for me. I have been once again sick this morning. Every morning I get sick but today was worse. Why I had agreed to Ben's request I don't know. He had warned me this will happen. He didn't want me to do this but underneath I know how desperate he was. He had a problem and I naturally wanted to help him. Ben was my boyfriend 2 years ago. I had moved past our relationship a long time ago but we are still friends. And I wanted to help him as a friend. All this started 3 months back, when he came to my door with his problem. When he left me two years ago I was heartbroken. I was very depressed. I didn't want to get hurt once again. But when he came to my door with his problems I agreed. I couldn't say no to him. I am crazy and stupid. But this time I will not fall to his charms. He left me before and I don't want to get involved again with him. But around him I can't control my emotions.
I first met him at bar. I worked in a company called as Anderson Corporation. It was Friday night and I and my friends have decided to have a drink before we head to our homes. I was in my work clothes and my hair was a complete mess. The bar was near to our office. So we went over there. I and my friends were enjoying the drinks, When a handsome black haired guy approached our table. He had green eyes and he was looking towards me. He smiled at me and said "Can I buy you a drink? My name is Ben"
I was very shocked that this handsome hunk was asking me for a drink. I didn't wanted to leave this opportunity so I said
"Hi Ben. I would love to have a drink with you". We started chatting after that. He was a funny, witty and good guy. He was fun to talk to and had a good sense of humor as well some cheesy lines. He made me comfortable and I chatted with him easily. And after drinks he decided that he will drop me off safely to my home. I lived in an apartment half an hour away from my office. It was located in a good neighborhood. I lived on 7th floor. After reaching my apartment we exchanged numbers and decided to meet again. He didn't invite himself in and I liked that about him. I think I was not ready yet. I was just wishing he would call me. And my wish got answered when I got a call from him in the morning
"Hello"
"Hello Natasha. Yesterday's date was a good one but it was incomplete"
"I thought it was complete. I don't think so anything was remaining. You didn't even left anything behind"
"I didn't left anything behind because you didn't invited me in your apartment"
"I don't invite strangers into my apartment. What if you are a psychopath or a serial killer. A girl has to be on her guard and I don't invite people I just met into my apartment. I don't know anything about you"
"So meet me for another date. This way you can know more about me. And I didn't get my kiss also"
"Keep dreaming. Another date sounds good"
"Can we meet on Wednesday evening 8:00pm"
"OK. Pick me up from my apartment".
We then met on Wednesday and had dinner in a nearby restaurant. It was a fun and beautiful evening. The conversation was light and friendly. We had a nice time. He again dropped me to my apartment and wished each other good night. We decided to meet on Friday again. We meet on Friday again. As I know more about him I felt more attracted to him. He had that charm in him. On Friday night I kissed him good night. It was a special kiss that left both of us breathless. He said
"Are you still sure you don't want to invite me in your home". I giggled and said
"I am not sure yet. Maybe next time. I will see to it". He didn't push me and wished me good night and went away.
And that's how our relationship began. After 1 month into our relationship he said he wanted to talk something important to me. I got nervous and started thinking what is it that he didn't told me. He sat me down and said
"I want to be honest in our relationship. I am more attracted to you than I thought I would be. And I thought I would continue without telling you all this but this secret is killing me inside. I wanted to tell you all this when I first realized I am in love with you. But I cannot keep going without telling you all this". My heart was sinking by the second the words left his mouth.
I was very depressed listening to all this. I wanted to him to cut the crap and directly come to the point. He took a breath and continued
"I am not from this Planet. I am from Mars." He said this in a single breath. I was shocked and then I finally said
"You are joking right?? What a nice joke to play with me". He shook his head and said
"No I am not joking. I am serious everything I said is true. I am from a different planet. I am Ben Alexander Noah. The descendant of the Royal Noah family, which rules the planet Mars. I am the prince there. My father rules the planet right now. I came here to do some research here. We are the last remaining species in Mars. We live in a very secluded area on Mars. We are the species who look like the inhabitants of this planet. We came to know all this because we had also sent some scouting parties to earth to do such research. We are also technological advance nation. But now we are looking for solutions for future possible threats to our species. I do not wish any ill will towards your planet. I came here in peace to save my species from extinction ". He said all this and sighed a breath of relief.
I was still not sure if he was telling the truth or not. But the honesty in his eyes and conviction in his voice was difficult to ignore. I saved my judgement. I had many questions and I wanted to ask them all. But I asked him the most obvious question "why didn't you told me all this?"
"I was forbidden to tell all this to any human being. I was here just for research purposes and not to mingle or be in relationship with someone from here. When I saw you for the first time in the bar I was attracted to you and thought you will be a good subject for my research. But I got to know you and then I was sunk and didn't know how to go back without seeing you, without listening to your voice or seeing your smile. I was afraid I will lose all this with you. And yet I wanted our relationship to be transparent without any lies. I feel good now without any lies between us".
I was still in shock and it was too much to process. My head was filled with doubt and fear. But I told him
"It is a lot to process at once. I need some time to think about all this. Give me some space and time. I am still not sure you if are telling the truth. But I will believe you for now". With all this said and done he went away.