Why Do I Do This?

All I want to do is make people laugh so I can make their day just a little better so they don't have to be clouded and distracted by the stress they have.I go through long lengths to make people laugh and at times I tend to go passed the limits and hurt peoples feelings.I hate hurting peoples feelings and I say that but i don't stop passing these limits.I'm distracted by the goal of making people laugh and the limits disappear and get ignored.I have done things i'm not proud of just to get a laugh.I have hurt the feelings of some of the nicest people i know just to get a laugh.I hurt the ones I care because of some stupid joke.Jokes are not the only things that get me into trouble.Some people live double lives and hide their identities but I have multiple different lives and many different identities.I have hurt peoples feelings just to fit in with others,just so that I could have friends and not be alone.I don't have a family that cares for me so I create multiple egos to gain a family replacement of different friends.I am filled with guilt and pain and I can never live without the pain because of the thought of how I failed my goal of making people happier,all I have done was make people feel worse,I added to their already stressful lives.I'm sorry............