I feel like broken glasses,

And I can only see bits of my aspirations through the little shards of shattered crystal,

But will never know if what I see is reality or just a distorted vision of what I've dreamt of.

I feel like an unused pencil,

Who's purpose was to be held tight,

Yearning to express feelings and emotions in a positive and clear manner.

I feel like myself,

Always wanting to absorb all the different levels hopes and dreams of my loved one,

Praying one day I can make all of these wants pulled through... But in reality never will.

They have eyes

But they can't see

That what we are

Is insanity

They take our money

They kill everybody

And all we want

Is to be free

Can you even look me in my face?

Or are you to embarrassed,

Cause your such a disgrace,

I hate you so much,

And it's you I'm gonna erase,

Out of my mind,

Not leaving a single trace,

You were never there for me,

We're you even there when my birth took place?

I just wanted a father figure,

Someone to look up to and embrace,

Some one to call dad,

And show off to the human race,

Mom told me give you some time,

Give you some space,

But I didn't care I searched for you,

Then it started to feel like a chase,

Felt like a race,

I'd reach out to you,

And you'd run at a faster pace.

So for now I give up,

I'm giving you your breathing space.

I've always just wanted someone's recognition; but instead I pick up bad habits.

Always doing the same things; repetition.

I would always search for a man with the unrealistic characteristic that would seem idealistic to my simplistic life.

And then I would think, so what?

My feelings then hitting me like and uppercut. I would then start avoiding things, going around, taking any short cut.

My emotions never let me be one to fit in,

I always feel like an intrusion,

OR

Is it all in my head; like an illusion?

Cause I can never help to come to the conclusion,

That if I was to find the perfect guy,

It would be one big delusion.

Some of my relationships were abusive,

Not physically but mentally,

Always being intrusive.

So now even years after its hard for my brain to adjust and for people to gain my trust,

Because in the past people have used me and everything they've earned turned to dust.

Changes are always the blow,

Why make commitment when eventually you'll have to let go?

That's what I'm forced to think, especially after you,

And when I thought you were my missing link.

I've always felt like I have no choice,

So right now I'm going to speak up,

Even though I have no voice...

I know your always working 24/7 around the clock,

But I just need 10 minutes pick up the phone so we can talk.

Our relationships been a tough journey,

And will we make it?

There's really no guarantee.

I've been through a lot,

And my life kinda feels like jail,

But believe it or not,

I know I'm not gonna fail...

I know I'm not gonna fall,

Love me or leave me,

I'll always fight and stand tall.

I used to think that being so far away from you,

And because it was you I couldn't see,

That it was gonna drive me crazy,

Bring me to insanity.

But now I'm working on myself,

My spirits stay strong,

I'll keep my head high,

Even if I'm wrong.