I gripped my knife as he entered the room, and tried to crouch tighter against the shadows of the corner. It was too risky to show myself. The government's soldiers were everywhere--and besides, even if he was on my side, I wasn't sure I wanted to make alliances.

He had mousy brown hair and freckles splattered across his nose and cheeks. He had brilliant green eyes, but bags hung beneath him, indicating that he had not gotten much sleep for days, like most people. Dirt smeared his face and hands. His lips parted and he let out a quiet yawn.

I narrowed my eyes and held my knife closer to me. What was he doing here? Why did he seem so careless? I scowled. Was he even going to do something, or was he just going to stand there like an idiot?

His gaze darted around the room, and I tensed as it flitted past me. I relaxed. He hadn't seen me yet. I stroked my knife, and glanced up at him.

His gaze rested on a vase, and he walked over to study it. He took it from the shelf and turned it over in his hands, running his fingers along the intricate designs and carvings. After what seemed like hours--although it could have just been minutes--he lay the vase back on the shelf, glanced around one more time, and walked out of the room.

I sat crouched in the corner for a very long time after he left, to make sure that he wasn't going to come back. Finally, I crawled out of the corner, knife in hand. I stretched, and tip-toed over to study the vase. The designs and carvings seemed to tell a story--one that I could not follow, of course, for the carvings and designs were jumbled all over the place--but it was a story, at that.

Suddenly, the door opened, and I dropped the vase. It shattered into thousands of tiny pieces, and a gasp came from the door.

I glanced over to see him again. I gritted my teeth. I had been sure he was gone--yet here he was. I ran my thumb of my knife's handle, and said, my voice thick with menace, "Who are you? Friend or foe?"

He gazed at me for a long while before answering. He tipped his head and said, his voice a bit shaky, "I--I would ask the s-same of you."

I raised my knife. "I asked the question first," I hissed. "Now, answer me, or I'll kill you."

He blinked. "You're--You're one of them, right? The government's enemies?" He drew in a breath. "I guess I'm a foe."

I rolled my eyes. "Thought so. Government's pet." I paused for a moment, and lunged forward, knife in hand. "I guess I'll have to kill you."

I tried to stab his throat, but he blocked my blow with his own knife. He tried to knock my knife out of my hand, but, when that didn't work, he squeezed his eyes shut and stabbed my shoulder instead.

I dropped my knife and fell away from him. It took me a moment to register that I had been stabbed. I glanced down at the knife lodged in my shoulder, and thought simply, 'Oh. I've been stabbed.' And once I realized that, pain started running up and down my arm, making me gasp in agony and resist the urge to scream.

His eyes widened, and his eyes searched the room. After a quick moment, he raced up to a table and stole the cloth from it, and he then ran back to me. "Sorry," he said quietly, "but this is going to hurt." He yanked the knife from my shoulder and pressed the cloth against the wound, which had started gushing blood.

And hurt it did. Pain exploded from my shoulder and black spots started to dance in my vision, but I pushed them away. Confusion started to cloud the pain, and I asked, "Why are you helping me, government's pet? You're supposed to be the enemy. Need help with that? Okay, I'll give you instructions. I'm the enemy. You kill the enemy."

He stared down at the cloth, which was starting to redden with my blood. "I don't like killing people," he said softly.

"You don't like killing people?" I scoffed. "Uh-huh. You're a soldier; you're a government's pet. That's what you do. You fight, you kill."

Suddenly, he stopped applying pressure to my wound and gazed up at me. "I don't kill people," he said, and then mumbled something that I could not make out.

"Then why're you a soldier?" I snarled."Well, pet? Why do you stand with the government, loyal like a drooling dog?" I narrowed my eyes. "Soldiers kill people, and that's why I don't stand with them."

His eyes started to burn with an angry fire. "Why do I fight for the government?" He asked, his voice low. "Why am I a soldier? Because I need to support my family, that's why. Because we are poor, and we need money. And by fighting for the government, I can give them the support they need." His voice started to rise. "I do NOT kill people. I have not killed anyone; not once in my life. And what about you? You are apparently against killing people, huh? Well, what about back there? You tried to kill me. And how many others have you tried to kill? How many soldiers, how many elders, how many children, standing with the government? And how many times have you succeeded?"

I stared at him, silent for a long, long time as I, surprised at his outburst, mulled over what he said. Finally, I said softly, "Four. I have killed four soldiers." I turned away, suddenly ashamed under his intense gaze.

His hands started to push against the cloth again. "I thought so," came his whispered reply.

After a few more minutes, he removed the cloth, for the blood had stopped. He gave my shoulder a few more dabs, and then said, "How's your shoulder? I'm really sorry that I hurt you."

My shoulder was lightly throbbing, but I said, "It's fine." I paused. "And, um, thank you."

He smiled a bit. "You are very welcome." He tilted his head. "What's your name? I'm Cooper."

"Amanda," I replied, not smiling back, "but my friends call me Mandi." I prodded my shoulder a bit, resting where it hurt and where it didn't. I winced as my fingers found a tender spot.

Cooper laughed quietly, for no reason. "And can I call you Mandi?"

I thought about this. "No." I got to my feet. "Well, I'll be leaving now. I should probably go before you run off to get the authorities." I rolled my eyes, walked over to the corner, and slung my backpack over my good shoulder. I turned on my heel and started out the door.

"Wait!" Cooper called. "Mandi--I mean, Amanda." He grabbed my hand.

I spun around. "What do you need?" I spat. "I'm not coming with you willingly to the headquarters, pet." I yanked my hand away from his.

"I know that..." He paused, and locked his gaze with mine. "Where are you going, Amanda?"

I sighed. "Somewhere. Anywhere. Away from here." I made big gestures with my hands as I said it. "Everywhere."

"I..." Cooper hesitated. "Um, could I come with you?"

I blinked, and scowled. "Are you kidding me, pet? God, no. You're a soldier. Is this some sort of dumb trick? Because I'm not falling for it."

Cooper took a step back. "No."

I crossed my arms. "Well, then. Why do you want to come?"

"Because... Because, your shoulder isn't fully healed yet. I need to keep an eye one that." His mouth twisted into a half-smile.

I sighed. "Okay, look. I know that's not the only reason, so unless you can cough it up, I'm leaving you here."

Cooper looked down at his shoes. "Well... Well... You're the closest thing I've had to a friend for a long, long time." He looked at his feet. "And... My family. There's something I didn't tell you." He sighed. "Well, okay. I lied. My family doesn't need my support. Not really." He turned away. "My family's rich. But they... They support the government entirely, and... And so... I had to work for the government, or else my family... Well, let's just say, um... They aren't exactly kind to people that don't support the government."

I was quiet for a long time. "You mean... You don't support the government? And why did you lie?" I scowled, and crossed my arms.

He bit his thumbnail. "If I told you the truth, you would have killed me. You know you would have."

"Yes," I said slowly. "Yes, I would have. But if it was a choice, why did you join? And what's all this about not supporting the government? And why did you choose to tell me the truth now, only minutes later? I could kill you right now, if I wanted. Oh yeah, and just to be honest: we aren't friends. I tried to kill you, Cooper. That isn't friendship."

He smiled the tiniest bit. "You softened up in those minutes. You won't kill me; I can tell. I could have killed you, but I didn't." He shrugged. "I don't support the government. Not really. But I'm not against the government, either, not like you." He sucked in a breath. "If I hadn't of joined, my family would have gotten suspicious." He glanced at me, eyes wide. "And Amanda, you don't know my family. They're harsh." He shuddered a bit. "You may have tried to kill me. But you didn't."

"I tried. And I can do it again." I picked my knife up from off the floor.

"You aren't going to."

"Why do you think that?"

"Because I just healed your shoulder. And because of your eyes. They aren't cold, although your voice may be. I already told you this."

"And stabbed it," I said, ignoring what he said about my eyes.

"I could have killed you, but I didn't. You owe me one."

Silence.

"Oh, fine," I sighed, giving in. "But you make any attempt to find the government officials, I will kill you."

He grinned. "Got it." He started out the door, and I followed.

In the empty hallways, I said sternly, "You aren't allowed to talk, pet. Too dangerous."

"Okay, fine," Cooper said, and stuffed his hands in his pockets.

There was a long silence as we walked through the metallic halls, occasionally stopping to hide in the corners as soldiers passed.

Then Cooper spoke. "Hey, Mandi?"

"Don't CALL me that," I mumbled.

"Amanda?"

"What?!"

His eyes glinted a bit. "We make a good team."

I hesitated before speaking. "No, we don't. We aren't even a team yet." I heard a soldier's footsteps, and him and I hid in a corner.

Once the footsteps had faded, Cooper let out a quiet laugh. "We are to a team. I'm protecting you; you are protecting me."

I gazed at him for a long time before answering. Then I picked at my cuticles with my knife point, and said, "I guess... We sort of make a good team. We make an okay team."

We started walking down the hall again, and Cooper said, "We need to come up with a team name."

"Oh, no. No, no, no."

"Please?"

"No! What are you, ten?"

"Almost eleven."

"Stop joking." I scowled.

He poked me. "Okay, grump." His eyes lit up. "Wait! We could be the Tenners! Yeah, that's a good name."

"Stop shouting, Cooper. Anyway, that's a stupid name." I almost smiled, but I managed to keep my lips pressed in a tight line. "How old are you, anyway? I'm seventeen, if you must know."

"I told you. Almost eleven."

"Oh, shut up and be serious."

He sighed softly. "Seventeen."

"Thought so."

We walked in silence for a long time, hiding from guards, listening to our echoing footsteps.

"Um, Mandi?"

I didn't correct him. "Yes?"

"Uh..." He hesitated. "Thank you. For taking me with you."

I opened my mouth to shoot a sharp remark at him, but I thought better of it, and said quietly, "You're welcome." What I didn't tell him was that I was glad of his company--that I liked the sound of double footsteps, that it was nice to hear his voice.

I wasn't alone anymore.

Um... Hi? Anyway, I'm Stellar. If I ever get to meet any of you, you'll find that I'm super shy at first, but... Once I get to know you, it'll be a different story. Okay, hobbies? Well, I like to read...

...

...

And write?

I guess I kind of like to draw. I ski, if that counts. *mega gasp* STELLAR DOES A SPORT?! I THOUGHT SHE WAS A LAZY-

Yeah, get over it. I'm supposed to do track, but I don't.

Whatever you do, don't. Make. Me. Run. I hate running.

I play the ukulele. And some piano.

Let's see, odd experiences...

I broke my leg when I was two or three because I was trying to climb a large box that held some heavy thing... And it fell. On me.

But that's not really an odd experience? See, I told you. I'm not interesting. Well, I'm... Mm.

My day usually goes like this:

1) Fall out of bed

2) Eat no breakfast

3) Go to school

While at school, I...

1) Try to memorize what everybody is wearing

2) Deal with annoying people

3) Count stuff in the classroom.

4) Sometimes, I actually LISTEN.

5) Talk

6) Go home

Once home:

1) Do nothing

Well, then. I hope you enjoyed that, and you didn't fall asleep. -.-

Welcome weary travelers

With packs upon their backs

Welcome kings and queens

Carrying gold in their sacks

Welcome children, mothers, fathers

Welcome sisters, brothers, daughters

Welcome elderly, welcome sons

Welcome peace and welcome guns

Welcome to this world of ours

Where you'll find you can reach the stars.

I am awesome and so awesome it doesn't make sense. Or does it?

I am so amazingly talented, well not really. I am going to write random words.

Cheese

Puke

Hate

Up

You

Love

Awesome

Me

Create

Generate

Peace

On

Earth

Today

Tomorrow

Cool

Swag

Swell

Now I will write the alphabet

A

B

C

D

H

I

J

K

L

M

M

I

P

Q

R

S

T

U

V

W

X

Y

And

Z

Well now I know my ABC's.

I will now do the letters in the order they are in on the key board.

Q

W

E

R

T

Y

U

I

I

P

a new row

A

S

D

F

G

H

J

K

L

a new row

Z

X

C

V

B

N

M

I love you

Not as a friend

But as so much more

I wish I could wake up next to you

Every morning

Bathed in the sunlight of your smile

I should have taken you seriously

When you said you had loved me since the second grade

Instead of laughing

But I was young, stupid, and afraid

I will always regret that

I should have told you to stay

That night

I didn't want you to go

And looking back

You didn't want to either

But I didn't know you weren't coming back

If I had

I wouldn't have shoved you out the door calling you an idiot

You knew I was joking and feigned insult

But I wish I would have at least said

Goodbye

My future seemed bright but the light is fading. My love seemed caught but it seems to be escaping. My thoughts were aligned but have been tossed up like a bad game of scrabble. Things that were once solid leave and die and get lost in the rabble. Eating used to be too easy, but now it makes me nervous. Maybe if I go to sleep for a while I'll be doing everyone good service. All I really need is a good friend, or a few. But silence is stability and you can't have the two. I keep getting lost in thought but the words I write are stained. Writing was my savior but now it seems so strained.

she is an off-white speck

on a white wall.

a cabbage-patch kid in a world

of barbie dolls.

the one who thinks just a

little more than she lets on.

the one who has more love

than you care to come upon.

she wears weird clothes

because she needs to stand out.

she will talk your ear off

because silence fills her with doubt.

she won't let you love her

because love often doesn't last,

and she can't seem to step

out of all the shadows she's cast.