I lie to hide the truth

It's easier than explaining,

That my pain is invisible,

An heavy weight

Suffocating my being.

I don't say I'm unwell

Or that my tears are unending,

I can't explain why I'm numb

Or why I'm tired of breathing.

I can think of reasons to grateful,

I can reflect on happier times,

But the memory of such cannot

remove the present cries.

I rationalize these feelings

but they won't go away.

I can't seem to pinpoint what "It" is today.

The day is beautiful

Not a cloud in the sky,

But I can't stop crying,

and I don't know why.

Embrace me Hold me

This might be the last time

You hold me

Our roads no longer merge

And our paths are diverging

You've gave me empty

Platitudes of loyalty

But you're reaching out for something else now

You're no longer walking with me

Life is a winding road

Bending and breaking

Shaping and molding

But you're not longer with me

On with on this winding journey

All that we used to know is gone

If we were still even friends

I wouldn't have learned the art of letting of go

Your actions hurt me

Your words sting me

And all I know is the long shadow of

You

Going farther away from me

And I can't keep holding on to

Something that is not here

So embrace me hold me

Say your last goodbye

Cause I'm leaving you lonely

Your path is no longer aligned with mine

Your chasing something so far away from me

So I've learned the art of letting go.

The painful memory of you drifting away from me

Is like a boat out to sea

Floating aimlessly

And I tried holding on

But I kept drowning

Trying pull you in

Trying to keep you inland

And so now

With your path clear in view

Our road forks and

I'll walk away from you

Maybe someday we'll meet again a

But for now we say goodbye.

Embrace me Hold me

This will be the last time 

I'm learning the art of saying goodbye

We get along the best we can.

A river of tears.

A cage of fears.

We get along the best we can.

My broken heart in pieces

I ripped it out.

I tried not to feel.

Love was always absolute

There was never any doubt.

Yet, still I cry.

Yet, still I pout.

The rage inside swells

For the truth does not bode well.

There are different ways to hurt.

We get along the best we can.

We get along the best we can.

I was frozen,

Was so sure that I'd be calm

That when the day came I would be strong enough.

When that day came, strength wasn't enough.

Explosions inside

Fears bubbling up

I put up a wall to keep them from getting out.

All my bridges burned,

In a disaster of my making,

There seemed to be no way out.

I became as a stone

I felt so alone.

Alone with only the voices.

The confused, angry voices

Of a broken vessel,

Whispering collectively

We get along the best we can.

We get along.

Lately dont feel much of anything

No can tell

Faking it well.

Lately I've been so raw,

Broken, and Numb.

Despite what you saw,

I'm completely dumb.

Unable to speak ,

intelligibly, truthfully.

Honestly, were I to shower you with

My truth you wouldn't believe me.

I am a hostage under siege

the floodgates have opened up on me but the rain won't last forever

I know that I've seen better days

but I know that The higher powers

have Their ways

But I've always said it's either now or never.

This world may overwhelm Me

But it's never gonna scare me

As long as there is breath in my body I'll be breathing.

I've always been told

Time heals all,

But there are things

That need more than time.

It takes more than time

To build a Wall or

To build a bridge .

It takes little to no time

To burn it down.

A Lifetime is how long it took

To build myself up.

I fought long and hard

To be strong enough,

To protect myself.

It took years of abuse,

before I had the strength

To pick myself up.

I love the ocean,

but I can't swim.

I love to watch the waves.

Thats why I built my Castle

by the sea.

For years,

I let myself be swept away.

I finally realized

that a Sandcastle couldn't stay by the sea.

My happiness is like snow,

In the deep south.

It falls slowly, beautifully,

Like a feather,

Landing quietly.

Eventually,

It becomes a luminous, white blanket.

It could be sparce

or much,

But always melts swiftly.

I hope you find your peace.

I hope your road finds light.

I hope you know you're loved.

I hope your pain is slight.

I know I'm just passing through,

I won't always be by your side,

But I pray that you'll be strong,

Brave enough to carry on.

Love can be your grace.

Hope can be a brace

for when you feel you can not win the race.

Waning in the twilight of glorious morning,

I hope that you make through,

I hope you heeded the warning.

Life came flooding in

Sooner than you wanted.

I glimpsed you looking back to me, in the briefest, little moment.

Enchantment, rapture, and melancholy beaming through your eyes.

As you leave me, heading to your new adventure,

just beyond the sunrise.

I wish I could believe

That the sun will rise

But the truth can decieve the untrained eye.

I wish I could believe that my heart could be whole

That good people can live and still keep their soul.

I wish that could trust anyone,

That my pain wouldn't be a burden.

I wish that my smile was true and not a mask for how I'm hurting.

I wish that weight I carry wasn't so heavy,

Like lead in my feet, they drag in beat.

I who loved. I who cared. I who tried. I who cried.

I was a fool to believe that life is good to good people.

There has always been

Dark and

Light.

In our hearts a battle each day,

In our lives the war we wage.

Always balanced by our strength

There will be the overwhelming desire to succumb to the dark.

The neuroses that twist and tangle

In our minds,

Casting a web of doubt and deceit

That open the door for darkness to

Enter.

If you are strong you will find

Balance.

If you are weak you will lose.

The truth is

There is no light without

Dark.