Have you notice how fast you can learn a song playing on a radio station unconsciously ?

I have, and I came to the conclusion that this why is so important to be very careful what you surround yourself with, our brain is programmed to abstract everything around us, be very careful & make sure that whatever & whoever you are listening to makes you grow and be a better person, If is not! discarded out your life.

~Rafa~

That moment when you are surrounded by love ones but still lonely, that fear of having no one,

The moment you realize you not as important to them compared to as they are to you,

My chest hurts my heart pumps slowly as it dies within because it feels empty and drained,

Desperately exited to see them but not quite the same feeling back,

I feel so much pain running through my clogged veins my heart feels like just wants to stop

This roller coaster of emotions

The one that don’t let me hold a job

The pain I feel in my chest like is all lost

No compassion for my struggle

No one see me in the huddle

I feel like I’m fainting

I feel like my voice is on mute

So painful I feel like I’m draining

My emotions so hurt

I feel like is always raining

That shadow that my body created

I can see the pain on it

I’m holding on but there is no borders

I’m trying to breathe but I can’t find air

I’m trying to stay positive but my mind don’t care

I’m trying to smile but my soul just glare

I feel like I’m dead but I can’t feel the pain

I feel like I’m strong but it hurts so much

I feel like keep fighting

My my heart not much

My brain all confused

My bones don’t feel well at all

My thoughts getting fused

I feel so lost my gut want it all

Depression taking over

I wish I had a reset button

I just want to start this over

Seems to always find the bottom

People judging kindness

Feeling like their is something more

Feel stuck in the darkness

I’m tired by brain feels sore

I scream for help but no one hears me

I feel like drowning please come save me

I feel mix emotions

I feel stressed out heart in motion

Pounding in my chest

Please get me some rest

I know we all suffer

My chest has bulletproof vest

Water running down my face as rain falls

Running towards my home as my faith grows

Won the lotto when I needed most

Emotion takes over but I felt so lost,

Hunny I’m home but she doesn’t answer

Key on door I just wanted to surprise her

Apparently my struggle went right past her

When I work so hard so I can provide her

There they ware laying in my bed

Decided to turn around all I saw was red

I lost my balance my life destroyed

Grabbed the car keys I was so annoyed

My tears didn’t leave me a clear vision

As I make a turn follow the navigation

My car was crush I died at impact

And my wife rape murder under investigation

Lost my wife & lost my life for jumping into conclusions

I could have saved her But now is all illusions within the confusion.

~Rafa~

Before you hurt someone think straight,

Maybe their life is already twisted,

Don’t pull the gun out behave,

Kill me please He insisted,

He didn’t think straight just wanted out

The killer didn’t understand why so

He fight it out,

Family worried didn’t know he’s abouts

Call the police please and find out

Bamm, bamm shots have rang out

Life taken away young and stressed out,

Left he’s kids fatherless

For the easy way out.

~Rafa~

9/28/17

The silent moment

The one when you feel the pounding on your chest

Once in a few we feel

If only can my brain heel

My soul is quiet sometimes

But at times wants to scream

The fear and rejection of dark places

Makes my skin peel

But serenity takes over in cases

That very strange feeling of comfort

I don’t know where that came from

Dear God when are you coming for us.

~Rafa~

Hello Ms. How are you today,

Why you work so hard on staying away,

Been looking for years trough night and the day

I just want to meet you & confirm what they say

I know is hard I know you’re in pain

I’m sure if you get to meet me you like who I’am

I need you Ms. Lady I miss you my Mom

This evil drugs hide away who you are

I never lose hope you put the addiction down

I don’t care what you do, but I need you now

My dad in he’s shame also ran out

Thanks for Uncle and aunt for not allowing me to drown,

I just keep thinking what life will be like

If drugs didn’t exist and you was just fine!

~I love you Mom~

~Rafa~

In a world full of us people with dreams,

Sometimes success is right on the strings,

we are too focus on what could that be

That we never see it, will go right pass me

Feel sad sometimes I know you deserved

Keep focus stay strong don’t let no one take it

Can’t ride in 2 lanes one way or the other

Don’t crash your life acting like another

Be you live freely I love you my brother

It hurts my heart knowing is a fifty fifty

You might listen might not my hearts feeling heavy,

Depression is not easy been fighting myself

One side keep doubting the other side of my brain

Is hard when the feelings are unpredictable as rain

I know will get better one day!

The day that I hold the steering wheel straight!

Wait a minute there is something I wanted to say

Be true to yourself, be strong and have faith.

~Rafa~