Random scatterings cloud my mind

Shards swirling

I walk onward

Into chaos

Accosted by

Sound

Color

Light

Emotion

Madness

I reach out

Desperate to find meaning

To make sense and escape this hell

Alone I stumble

Shards swirling faster

Whirlwind tightening

Suffocating in thought

Inside my mind

Bittersweet insanity

Has me blinded

To all but

Pain

My sky weeps

Discordant sound

Blowing

Broken winds

Creating brief moments of

Melody

Yet

All I crave is

Silence

Questions run

Together

Awake

Whenever asleep

Dreams twisted

Lost and tarnished

Trapped

In this

My world

Inside

Light from without

Cleansing

Renewing

This small light

Within

Someday

To guide me

To teach me

To save

Myself

Yearning am I

Your touch I beseech

Caress my innocence

Corrupting thought

Chill wind

Skin a pucker

Warm me from the inside

I open myself

Opening to you

I reach out

Becoming vulnerable

I am afraid

Yet

I trust

You

With all that is

Me

And this

Scrap of hope

That is all that remains

White lies burning

Over tarnished lips

This agony...

Unmakes me

Beyond what can be fixed

Wounds... never to heal

Pain

Time cannot erode

Yet

How do I live

Bent

Broken

Photographs behind my eyes

What will find

When

You see inside... my mind

The fault is my own

Carrying the past inside

Am I too late this time?

One step from the edge

And this...

Just a worthless rant

A cry for help

Left unanswered

Unheard

Screaming silence

wind burns into me

whispers of faded

apologies

no more then the shadow

of memory

of times long past

scorching my lips

searing my throat

in there passing

I can't help but cry

then laugh

as instead of cleansing tears

all that falls is

dust

Silently stalking me

My breath heavy

Suffocation looms

The killer from my dreams

Here

In the light

Haunting me further

I know his face from memory

We have met before

I must not let on

He must not

Smell my fear

I can't fight forever

In the end he will win

Again