Reflections of time long past
Droplets of sand in a dessert sea
Blackness awakens the nightbird
She hears the wind calling out
Echoing memories of freedom
Feeling her true spirit call
Misty wails bellowing out over the horizon
Beckoning...beckoning...
She dreams of that feeling again
It’s weak but still there
That hazy poignant fragrance of selflessness
Smelling of death and peonies
Delicious, forbidden, foreboding
What does it mean?
Devastation
My own facade - a fraud
My performance grand - you may applaud.
Yet tis a sorrowful tale as set
She gave up all herself
for woe and regret
of a life that could have been -
alas, tis not.
Instead she sits alone in rot
Her insides once afire -
now ash.
Her dreams that once were dreamt -
now dashed.
Her youth that smoldered with sex and zest
has now faded like all the rest.
Choices made -
Now lessons learnt.
Luscious landscapes all have burnt.
In soot she sits alone in thought.
Boundless colors long forgot
Hot pinks are now exchanged for dust.
Turquoise seas have turned to rust.
Florescent yellow suns have set.
Vermillion scarlet feathers fret.
She sifts the ash with both her hands.
Dreaming of those distant lands.
Running free in fields of green.
How can a pauper have been a queen...
Ode to Brian
Last night I dreamt of you - again
Your tattered face was worse than I imagined
Torn, ruined, surgically-enhanced
Memories of what used to be
come to mind
Nights of teenage revelry
Without a care in the world
Except listening to you practice
in that storage unit
megaphone in tow
You crafting your art into what it is now -
super stardom
Who would’ve thought
that it would turn into this
I don’t think you did. Maybe you did?
I sure as hell did not.
Boy was I wrong.
If I had loved you then as you lusted after me
Where would we be today?
Where would I be?
I often wonder...
Honesty
I'm not able to fake the niceties.
Nor feign a smile where one is not.
It's a curse amongst society.
Who scheme, and stew and plot.
Over the years I've played a bit
in the cesspool with their team.
I've tried my best to follow suit
disdain shining like a beam.
I've always been a lone wolf
In my mind, my heart, my soul
In a room that's filled with people
I'm ever distant from the whole.
Though distant, I am thoughtful
of the few I hold so dear.
For when I love it's steadfast,
wholehearted, loyal and true.