A changing Brooklyn, part two
I then lost my way.
Lost in the pan handling that was produced from the small piles
of faces fit onto the covers of vhs cases
that made it to the stretched out, wide hanging windows
of a video rental store on 389 Court Street.
Always happy once your attention was grabbed.
Fascinating on the outside
with five shiny stars and ebert says quotes
but empty on the inside
from plot holes that kept on getting bigger and bigger
because people kept on
forgetting to rewind and rewind.
Shame on me.
Set up just as if they were cutlery for kings and queens,
but hiding mind over pain as these moving pictures were caught
Between glass and their inevitable kidnapping
By people who were looking for a night of entertainment.
Only to be discarded again,
they started snapping at any cold skin that passed them by.
All the earnest eyes in stride that passed from right to left
and left to right
never cared to notice the mistreatment on their sun damaged faces..
Some with mouths open, just on the margin of moving.
Words ready to wriggle out
and lure the living in.
Even though I heard their plightful pleas for me
to make a muse of myself in their raw and romantic little worlds
I only ever really took a look at them
when the store closed down.
I felt guilty but it was safe then.
A changing Brooklyn, part one
239 Carroll Street is the one.
The one with the statue of the smiling jester,
that by the movement of men,
became a stunted symbol of a time that was taken away.
Full of life in the past but
forever encased in a lifeless carcass in the present
His humility huffed and puffed around the small courtyard.
Putting on a show but pleading at the same time.
Subjected to watch
our empire of dust whisk away into the wind
created by continuing construction.
Suspended in a similar vein,
his arm was made to spin around the adjacent lamp post
with a top that betrayed,
becoming more tilted and tainted
as time took its turn.
Even so,
embellishing the dirty air with a million little laughs
did nothing against the incoming money
that was exchanging hands every day.
and as much as he thought
that his presence actually meant something,
Nobody could hear the clownman
over the power drills.
Three Minutes of Rejection
Being alone in the dark used to be what Jacob was scared of most.
What had just taken place though, had transformed the boy's greatest fear into suddenly his best friend. One that held him and squeezed him and blinded anybody who tried to come near.
Having been witness to the event, the various blouses and dresses that hung above by flimsy hangers did their best to console him. Combing gently through his hair with the softest of threads.
The forgotten shoe boxes off to the left could do nothing more than emanate a smell. A comfortable smell. One that quickly drowned out the fragrance that she had in her hair.
Everything was still. Incomplete. The closet's belongings were in mourning.
All lending a helping hand.
"I will say that I kissed you and you were just blown away. Ok? No need for anything over dramatic. The quicker we get out, the better." Looking through the shutters, she gave a long, exasperated sigh.
"Why couldn't the bottle land on Roy. He looks so cute tonight."
Before she could see, Jacob took the offer of a blue skirt and quickly wiped away a tear.
The World Stops for a Shooting
It seemed as though all those news segments that I watched when I was younger finally got to me. Finally creeped into a place somewhere in the back of my mind where wishes and worries became a reality.
Never before in my life had I awoken from a dream with a pounding heartbeat. First time for everything. I just never had wished it would be combined with this type of illusion though.
The sun was shining. Hitting my cheeks. Making me feel as though I could take on the world. A younger version of myself, with the straps of a backpack harnessed to each shoulder. Walking wihout a care in the world. Near a school actually.
I couldn't tell you if it was possibly my grade school building or my junior high school building. Or myabe an algamation of both. As much as I think back, even today, trying to figure out where I was in time, the version of me that that facade brewed up didn't mind.
There were so many other children around me as well. Going in, hanging outside for a bit before the grown ups corralled us, even a few doing something that they weren't supposed to. Climbing fences. Throwing sticks. Pelting rocks at one another. That sort of thing.
There was so much color. On the backpacks. The clothes. The school building. Even the black, white and grey inbetween of the sicks and rocks stood out. Excitement.
But for some reason, the faces were blurred out. Maybe they were all just enjoying themselves so fast that I couldn't get a glimpse of them.
And then everything slowed down. The faces were still empty. And the peop-, sorry bodies, all started running towards me. Or so I thought at first, considering I was still a little bit from the entrance.
One. Then another. They kept coming. And they didn't even look back.
You know how in a type of situation like this, one might say something along the lines of "By the look on their face, you could tell something was wrong?"
That was the scariest part. With no wide, open eyes to invoke fear and no mouth to scream from, I was just lost in a dizzying array of motion.
But there was a sound. One single sound. A kind of bang that makes a heart jump.
Usually, I wake up when I'm stimulated this much.
I saw him. The source of all this. The reason why this warm day turned into a hellscape.
On the sidewalk now, he aimed with precision. Straight at me. The gunman had his sights set on me.
He fired.
I woke up.
The Robbery
Thirty something years in the same house. Thirty something years of bringing up the same objection whenever his wife or son wanted to go on some sort of trip or vacation. Or even go out all together to see a movie. Or even just go grab a bite to eat.
However long or short the occasion was, they just couldn’t go out at the same time all together. Because according to him, they would have taken everything and his family would come home to an empty house.
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Sometime in the 70’s. A night just right for a robbery. A small man by himself in a big house. Hurtfully cold and just windy enough to take your breath away. Even if the next sight to take in would do it anyway.
Upon entering, he knew something was wrong. Tiny was shivering all the way on the other side of the kitchen, in the corner. No sound erupted from his mouth. The little toy poodle usually barked and barked until the homeowner walked up the stairs and greeted him The few boxes that were still taped up were strewn all about on the floor. Cabinets were pulled, some even lay on the kitchen floor. Rooms were dismantled entirely.
Running upstairs, and without a moment’s hesitation, he ran to his bedroom. Looking under the bed from the right side, he couldn’t see them. Maybe it was just the angle. Looking under the bed from the left side, there was nothing there either. With his nerves gaining more momentum than his breath, he lifted the bed frame, mattress and all.
The purple bag. The gold coins. My future.
He sat on the kitchen floor with Tiny in his arms. They were both shaking.
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Hanging onto those feelings. Latching onto that memory.
Traumatized. Obsessed.
Brooklyn, a long time ago
Above and in between black and white blades of static,
samurai in boats discussed war and peace
inside of that crudely hung television
in the corner.
Below and within weakly stapled brown bags,
containers of kung pao chicken
and tubs of wonton soup
going cold
were being held by impatient hands.
I too, at such a young age
dangled from an angled noose
choking from the scene above the smells
mesmerized by the exotic picture
that my grandmother's rabbit ears couldn't catch.
They were supposedly built to last.
Stop looking.
The red lettering with the white background
Light shining into it from the lamp post wanting to belong
A few feet in the air away from it, a small lonely balcony reaches out, staring at the commotion
Below the sign, green growing out of barrels
The yuppies live here, that’s right
Brooklyn Winery
Ironically, under the sign the windows are designed to look like cells out of a jail
Escaping from your addiction not the bar is the idea
The next one mixes an industrial exterior with a bridal interior, the curtains anyway
another illusion
A woman, walks by both, office in her breath, a cellphone to her ear.
She looks blurry to me.
The sidewalk is cracked.
There’s a puddle over there.
I’m afraid to notice the window that I see from the corner of my eye.
It sits above a store of some kind.
A jagged shutter has been pulled down, keeping out intruders, it’s midnight hero.
Beaten and tagged by someone’s spray paint.
On the other side of that window, blue, just all blue.
I’m watching it now, waiting for it to change color.
It’s not.
For the first time in a long time,
a shiver runs from my feet to my head
and I keep walking home.
Morning Walk
And I walk past the park
with no name
animals are told to keep away
trees are just but an
inch away
birds and squirrels flee
and run away
Cameras track my every move
Lights flicker on
yelling at my presence
Warning me that I'm not
supposed to be here
But nay a soul in sight.
It's lonely.
"Beware of Dog."
That's supposed to scare me.
Mine was taken away
The half of tree overe there
doesn't even come close
to what I want it to represent.
Cut down for the fiber optics
You know what? That'll do.