I unfollowed you from everywhere cutting all of my connections from you, thinking that you didn’t even think about me anymore and therefore decided to move on. I was just over you, only two more days needed and Boom! You would not mean anything to me anymore. But then there was a notification on my phone, you had sent me a request and my all feelings and emotions were back again. I again started missing you . I thought it was impossible for me to forget you. I tried to ignore your request because I knew somewhere that it was going to hurt at last. But I couldn’t ignore you for long time, so I accepted your follow request after some time, so you don’t feel I am stalking you. There was no action after this by your side. I thought about it and again u led me to suffer that pain, the feeling that I am so crazy that I fall for you everytime. But then the very next day I saw your message, commenting on my story. I felt butterflies in my stomach. It gave me immense pleasure to know that u do notice me. Again I felt there was definetily something by your side also, some feelings for me coz you never seemed to be one who just gives attention for time pass. Then I texted you back after large intervals of hour. You sent me your teasing face pic to annoy me, yeah you were looking shitty in that, and no one sends the shitty pics to random people. But then there was a thought, what if you were like other boys who just flirt, like other fuckboys. I stopped my emotions, my expectations so I am not again exploited. Then there was a text ‘Can I call you? coz I suck at texting’. You came to know that I have deleted your number, you said you were really disappointed and wasn’t expecting that. You called me, gave me a brief summary of what was happening in your life and were continuously asking about what was going on with me, you were deeply interested in my life; I can observe that by the way you were asking questions. You said you were bored with your intership and wanted to work along with me, you continuously taunted me for deleting your number, you said you didn’t delete my number coz u wanted to be in contact. Then like an idiot , I spilled all the beans regarding my career. You mentioned you use to observe me at internship and therefore know me better than me ;that to with full confidence. I said I am bit confused and scared for my career, you said you believe me and the way you said that ,it felt you mean it. And the talk went on for 1 hour, it was our first call, we were not friends, not in same stream, we were no one to each other, neither we were lonely souls though we were able to keep going for 1 hour and it would go on if I had not ask u to cut the call. It was so good feeling. I hope what you said over call were feelings and not only words. I was comfortable with you, and that was the best part, I shared what I hadn’t ever shared with anyone, and you were interested in knowing my interests.

The next day I saw you follwed one of the other interns over our common internship and again this was enough for me to get a reason to believe that you are a big flirt like other boys who is ready to be with anyone ,not a special one. This time I felt bad for you. Because you could never get to know what the real pain and love feels like. I felt betrayed but at the same time was saved.

I don’t know what I observed is right or wrong or I just overthinked, but your next action will decide what I think about you.