I’m hypnotized by your eyes as we stand outside of the restaurant in silence, each wanting to speak heartfelt words that can never be taken back....

We’re at the cusp of something new, as your hand takes mine, thanking me for my time and a lovely meal, but really wishing time would stand still forever....

I utter indecipherable words full of nerves and anticipation,

then you laugh

and I melt,

and the world shifts imperceptibly so that we’re suddenly standing closer together....

Our eyes are locked, our hearts beat in sync , words are lost to the passed moment of time but the meaning of the silence remains....

We both know there is no way back as our friendship ends and something else begins,

and starts to evolve into something even more desirable....

Time stands still,

as our eyes close,

and our lips meet,

and the transformation is sealed with a kiss.

But it’s over too soon,

because the clock hands spin,

the world continues to turn,

our eyes reopen,

and we don’t know where to go from here....

- Albus Dumbledore (J.K. Rowling)

This quote is important to me, because I can get so lost in the darkness of today that I have to remember to purposefully look for the good, in myself and in others. It also reminds me that happiness is a choice, based on how you veiw things. And, it is part of my favorite series.

Our hearts pound as one,

No matter what I do,

I cannot console him.

Show night has begun.

We circle round,

And all join hands.

He grabbed my hand

My eyes drop to the ground.

His thumb rubs the back of my hand,

Sweat from nerves covers both of us.

We are nervous for two reasons,

A liking and show night has begun.

"Ms. Borne, you must leave."

"Leave? But I only just got here!" I cry out. I had done one simple job for them. I was told this would induct me into the organization. Of course, I expected to be double crossed at some point, but never had I expected it so soon.

My reaction obviously one they had expected, so the man in the orange suit continued to explain what he had meant. "You must leave... permanently."

"Permanently?"

"For heavens sake, girl! You must die!" The man settled back in his chair and huffed a deep sigh. "You have served your purpose."

"But, it was a good purpose." The man in the blue suit leaned foreward into the light so I could see his face. He was ghastly pale with flaming orange hair, much like myself. My brother.

"I-" I couldn't formulate words correctly, so I just stood there for a few seconds of awkward silence.

"You can choose how you go." A man in a green suit said. He had a thick accent, and I imagined his face having a sneer.

"I want to be shot." I say, point blank. I had thought about this before, of course, coming from a criminal family. It would be quick. Relatively painless. "Once. In the head."

"Shot?"

"In the head?"

The men all muttered and a few gave short chuckles which sounded more like a coughing fit. I pointed to a spot on my head as if confirming.

"Alright then. Aldridge, come here."

Aldridge?

A tall guy around my age with black hair and narrow, upslanting eyes stepped forward into the light.

"Sir, I don't really-"

"Do it, Aldridge."

The eyes I had come to know so well, with the lashes gracefully curtaining his eyes, were full of fear. "Sir, I don't want to kill her. She's... she's my fiance, sir."

A gasp sounded to my right as a short, plump man in a yellow suit covered his ears with his hands as if to wish the words out of existance. At least somebody knew this was wrong.

"Aldridge, you can shoot her, or I'll shoot you both."

Daniel turned to me, a look of pain on his face, as he raises a gun.

"Dan, it's okay." I whisper. I didn't want him to die as well.

I walk over to him and direct the gun to the front of my head. The cool barrel made the idea that I was about to die so much more real.

"No." Daniel whispered and dropped the gun.

The gun had barely hit the groung when I heard a shot ring through the air, and saw Daniel drop to the ground. A scream must've left me at some point, but I wasn't loud enough to hear what came next.

"Good. I was needing to get rid of him."

Then nothing.