Wear my rage like an outfit

Depression is the centerpiece

They say I need to calm down

Find my inner peace

I'll either die young or not at all

With an empty bottle in my hand

Unfinished poems on a page

That few will understand

Few know the real me

The smile I put on is just a mask

I'm the blackbird

Flying from task to task

I think Cody died years ago

And the persona he created took over

Even though I still drink

I feel strangely sober

Sometimes I feel him inside me

Like he wants to come back

But when that feeling happens

I just fade to BLACK

This city will kill me

It kills us all

The redneck ghetto of America

A city full of vices

I feel bound by this place

We all do

This city can be saved

Fading away again

Numbing the pain again

Trying to forget again

Going insane again

Still shots of better times

You and I frozen in the moment

Words on a page

Symbolizing our hearts

Blood in the ink

But it fades away

Our love was black and white

I don't remember anything

But somehow I remember it all

I fell hard for you

Like leaves in the fall

Winter came and went

Spring I don't recall

Summer was hard

Now we return to fall

I have trouble remembering

How I felt at all

Flying through the air

Staring at the ground

The clouds grow farther

I don't make a sound

I made a choice

There is no way out

I was certain before

But I now feel doubt

I thought I was so alone

But I see so many below me

Strangers and friendly faces

Living so blissfully

Did I make a mistake?

Did I do the wrong thing?

I can't go back

I have no wings

I jumped off the bridge

I wish I could fly

It took all this to realize

That I don't want to die