Darkness fills this heart of mine brains in the wall I want to combine, through the pressure through the pain hell or heaven to me there both the same. Can or will he do it they say, I’ll show them one day friends and family have no clue. Of just about ready to do with me alive everyone is in danger, I spilt the throat of a stranger. Through the gurgling I hear why, I just scream die bitch die. With her body emptied with life and refilled with death, I look with a smile as they take their last breath. By: Robert Reynolds!

She has been in love with him since she was a young girl now that she is a mature woman who had the pleasure of running into him again, they hit it off and started seeing each other. It's been six years since their first date, they have been put through hell, he was in and out of jail most of the time. They argued, he threw her out more times then she could count, her head said to leave him but her heart told her to stay with him. Over the times that he was in jail he always found his way back to her, until another female came around and he would give the other woman all of his attention and everything would become all of her fault. Four months he was locked up in jail for the last time, he wrote her letters pro-claiming his undying love for her. Promising her that she is and always will be the one and only woman he wants, when he was finally released from jail they moved to a new town where nobody knew who he was and for a year and a half everything was perfect in their little world. Tragedy stuck when her family was hit head on by a drunk driver, she had to go and take care of them for two months. The friends they found and made together was only five people, in those two months of being gone she came home to find out that he met more people and she thought these people looked shady. Not even two days of being home with him again her stuff she brought in the state she was born in came up stolen, when their truck they brought and her family brought down to them got stole four days later. By one of his so called new friends, she felt like weeping but she just stood tall and pretended to be strong. Eight months later he done threw her out again, but told her that they would work out their problems so they could get back together and more women are coming around again. One he done said that he was going to have sex with when they was still together, a new woman who has a boyfriend come with her and that doesn't stop him from hitting on the woman or texting the woman behind the boyfriend's back or her back for that matter. They still live together as they are trying to work their problems out, because she is a damn good woman and he would be a fool to lose her to anybody. By: Vera Rice!

We might have lost you here on earth but the good father above gained some wonderful souls, we will always miss you, love you and think about you everyday. But we know that your in a better place now and pain free we will always remember you, we also know that your watching over us everyday even through we can't see you.   There are new family members that you haven't met or held in your arms we know that you have came to see them, the little ones will be told about you. Of how loving and caring you always was we will always remember you. We might not be able to see you anymore but we can still feel your love all around us everyday, we have our memories of you that we can talk about anytime we want to.     We also have a lot of stories to tell our children about you, like how funny you always were. Plus spending Christmas and other holidays with you, we will always remember you. We will always keep your memory alive so our children will know who their family members was and where they came from, they will know and honor their family history like we do. They will be proud like we are about our families background and history, we will always remember you. By: Vera Rice!

We might have lost you here on earth but the good father above gained some wonderful souls, we will always miss you, love you and think about you everyday. But we know that your in a better place now and pain free we will always remember you, we also know that your watching over us everyday even through we can't see you.   There are new family members that you haven't met or held in your arms we know that you have came to see them, the little ones will be told about you. Of how loving and caring you always was we will always remember you. We might not be able to see you anymore but we can still feel your love all around us everyday, we have our memories of you that we can talk about anytime we want to.     We also have a lot of stories to tell our children about you, like how funny you always were. Plus spending Christmas and other holidays with you, we will always remember you. We will always keep your memory alive so our children will know who their family members was and where they came from, they will know and honor their family history like we do. They will be proud like we are about our families background and history, we will always remember you. By: Vera Rice!

You must be laughing your head off at me thinking I'm so stupid that I don't know what is really going on, sorry to bust your little bubble but I know what is exactly going on. You only told me that you have a job to do in Alabama but you haven't told me that you will be gone for four whole days. You must think that you pulled the wool over my eyes think again, I know everything that you have been up to this whole entire time. I know you are planning on sneaking off with your ex girlfriend to have sex with her, I know you are planning to have sex in Alabama also. You forgot that your accounts are on my phone and that I can read everything your texting and planning on doing, you begged me not to leave you. You begged me to come home from Ohio, you told me that you choose to be with me when your ex girlfriend made fun of me. You said she mad you so mad that you quit talking to her, but it was all a bunch of lies. I have showed you time and time again that I trusted you, well I don't trust you anymore and I don't believe a word you say to me anymore. I was so happy, overjoyed and flying on cloud nine when you said that you choose to be with me. You say you can't picture your life without me, bullcrap I don't believe you. Because if you really can't picture your life without me you wouldn't be sneaking behind my back to have sex with your ex girlfriend or to have sex in Alabama. You would be showing me how much I truly mean to you, instead all you do is sneak around behind my back and tell other women how beautiful they are how sexy and how much you want to have sex with them. I can't remember the last time you told me how beautiful I am or how sexy I am or even how breathtaking I am to you. I can't even remember the last time you told me how lucky you was to have me in your life. How much I meant to you, all you care about is your own pleasure not once have you ever tried to pleasure me. When we have sex it's all about you needs, wants and pleasure, I give you more blow jobs than you have ever eaten me out. I don't complain about it anymore and I haven't in four years now, I don't ask you to eat me out either because you pop off at the mouth that is this the only thing I want you to do. So I quit asking for it four years ago, I give you a blow job and then I roll over to suffer being turned on by giving you head. You don't know how badly I suffer from wanting to have  release of my very own, and hurt so badly knowing you don't even think about pleasing me. Oh you think about pleasing other women but you never think of pleasing the one you have in your bed, home and who has always been there for you when you would go to jail time after time. I'm about worn down and tired I don't know how much more I can take of this, you tell me all the time that I only think of myself and it's not ture I think more of you than you really know. I wished that sometimes I really would only think about myself instead of always thinking about you, I clean house, I do laundry, wash, folding and putting up your clothes. I give you everything and you never give back to me. I lay out your clothes for you when you take a shower, I make sure you had money on your books when you was in jail, I made sure you had cigarettes when I didn't have any and I eat out of a trash can in the park so you would have food in jail. I bathed in the park when you had a nice shower to stand in. Not once have you ever thanked me for my sacrifices, you accuse me of doing stuff behind your back not believing in my innocence and you told me to my face that you don't believe a word I'm saying to you and that I have to again prove myself to you. But not once have you proved to me about the way you calm to feel about me, love me or even trust me. Well now I don't trust you or believe a word you say anymore to me, because I think your lying to me all the time. So go and enjoy your four days of having sex with that woman, thinking that I have no idea of what is really going on. But I'll never tell you that I really know what you have been up to mister. I'll save my knowledge of it all for the right moment to tell you that I knew everything that you thought you thought you was  sneaking behind my back to do. By: Vera Rice!

He plays his little tricks behind her back thinking that she has no clue as to his plan, so he sits back and continues to play his little tricks. He tells her that he loves her, he can't picture his life without her in it  one day he told her if she ever walked out of their home he would drag her back, if she had already left their driveway he would hunt her down and drag her back. She had to go to her birth state to take care of her family for two months, they had been in a car accident he told her that he would respect her more for taking care of her mother. So she did go not knowing what was going on at home while she was away, he told her that one of his ex girlfriends grandfather died she hated to hear that, he would constantly tell her how much he missed her and couldn't wait for her to come home to him. On the last day of her being away from home and him, she called him up for one last time for the night she could tell something was wrong. He was upset but he didn't want to talk about it, he told her that he chooses to be with her. She told him that she was happy to hear that, he went on to tell her that his ex-girlfriend made a big mistake that upset him so badly. He also told her that his ex-girlfriend was making fun of her, she demanded to know what the ex girlfriend had said about her, he told her not to worry he done cussed his ex-girlfriend out. She believed every word he told her, they talked for a hour before hanging up for the night. Something he said to her was bothering her really badly why would he think she would ever leave him, she has been in love with him since she was a young teenager her family tore them apart when they was teenagers, now as adults their together but on a daily basis she continues to fight her family just to be with him. He doesn't know anything about that because she chooses not to tell him, finally she was back home where she belonged with him. He seemed happy to have her back home with him, everything seemed great between them he told her that he hasn't been talking to his ex-girlfriend she believed until his ex-girlfriend called him and he answered it in front of her, of course she got mad with good reason this woman made fun of her. The night before he accused her of doing something behind his back even through she was completely innocent of what he accused her of, he flat out told her that he didn't believe her and nothing was going to change his mind about it. So she told him that she didn't know for sure that he hadn't been talking to his ex-girlfriend of course this made him mad at her, all she did was use his own words right back at him. She has been patiently waiting for him to slip up, so she could have proof of him cheating on her. Unbeknownst to him she was reading his messages after he read them so he wouldn't know what that she was snooping on him. One day it finally happened she got her proof that she was waiting on, his ex-girlfriend and him finally made a day for them to sneak off and have sex. She would keep this to herself until the right moment came for her to call him out on it, but what lie will he tell her so he could have a accuse to leave alone with his ex-girlfriend she wondered. By: Vera Rice!

These last two months has been hell for me,exesareexesareexesexesthoughHumptyhaveHumptyhead-onHumptya lotexesare one being away from my one and only love of my life and our home. The second being my family getting hit by a drunk driver head on, I went up north to Ohio to help them out because they needed me. I had to put my life, my plans to get my daughter back and getting a car for us since our transmission went out in our car. It was hard being away from my one and only love of my life and our home together for these last two months, we talked everyday, we video chatted and we would text and play games together. But I wanted to be home with him, to touch him, kiss him and make love with him. Somedays I wanted to cry myself to sleep, scream my brains out, yell at the world over my pain and depression of being away from my one and only love of my life and our home. But I’m a strong woman who can keep calm, pretend that everything is humpty dory and fake smile at my family and they don’t even know that it’s all a put on. I did that alot for the last two months pretending to be happy spending time with them, fake smile so they won’t real know that I was miserable being there and I would pretend to like being with them. And all the while wishing I was going home and hoping that day was coming quickly, my family has a habit of trying to get me to leave my one and only love of my life. Plus they try to control me still even through they can’t anymore. I wish they would stop doing that to me, I’m my own person and I’m a adult who can make up her own mind and my feelings are my own. They don’t need to tell me how to feel or think. They are starting to hate me for who I have become, I stand up to them when they start bad mouthing my one and only love of my life, they don’t like it when I stand up for myself to them, they can’t stand my smartass remarks about how I feel and what I think about how they treat me. I have repeatedly told them where my heart belongs and that I will be with my one and only love of my life whether they like it or not, I don’t care if they like it or not it’s my life and I’m a big girl who knows what she wants and I’m not scared to fight to keep my one and only love of my life. My family can either accept my decision or they can kiss my big white behind goodbye, I’m not afraid of kicking them out my life. After all I did it to my dad who doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore. I have no love lose on my part when it comes to my dad, so I’m hoping that my family will finally accept my decision about my one and only love of my life. And that they would be happy for me, because I have a great man who loves me with every fiber of his being and I love him the same way. We would die for each other, we will fight for each other and when we team up we are a unstoppable and unbreakable pair. We will never stop trying to make my family realize that we belong together and that our love will never ever be stopped or crushed by them or anyone who tries to break us apart. Once we was forced apart by my family, kept from each other for many years and we always found ourselves brought back to each other by fate. Now we are together and nothing will rip us apart ever again, because we will move heaven and hell to stay together, that’s how much our love means to us. Family be damned, strangers be double damned, ex’s be tripled damned and the law can kiss our asses because if they try to tear us apart we will hunt them down and blow them away to nothingness, and we won’t even blink twice when we do blow them away with our rage. We are what some people would call ‘Soulmates,’ to others we could be called to crazy people. Hell we even can be called the dynamic duo, we’re Joker and Harley Quinn our love is eternal, and it can’t be stopped or destroyed by anybody. By: Vera Rice!

I find happiness in all the weirdest places that nobody can ever imagine to look, people find it to be dumb, I love being with the man of my dreams even though he is a redneck, ill-tempered, foulmouthed, raises cain at people who deserve to be put into their rightful place and he's downright truthful. He speaks his mind and his peace whether they like it or not. Some people think all of those things are wrong in somebody but to me, all of those things make him perfect for me. I love all of his special faults to be his perfection beyond doubt. I love him for who he is and for all he can be. He thinks I'm perfect just the way I am, I'm true to myself, to him, he loves my smartass mouth, my temper, my tears, my fears and most of all he thinks I'm beautiful to the point of making him lose his mind and thoughts. To me he hung the moon and stars for me, he makes all my dreams come true and I'm his one and only. To him I'm his angel who saved him, his beautiful queen who has his back no matter what, who will give him anything he wants, I'm his reason for getting up every day and facing a  world that doesn't want to understand or even take the time to get to know the real him, where I do understand and know every wonderful thing about him that makes him so great and unique. He tells me that I'm his dream come true, he can't and won't picture his life without me. He told me that if I ever left him, he would come after me and bring me back no matter what because I mean the world to him, he never had a woman like me before, a faithful, honest, trustworthy, kind, sexy, beautiful and downright crazy as hell. I would kill for him, die for him, fight for him, and above all, I will always love him and never betray him in any way. He is my world, my happiness, and my one true love. Next to him stands my other happiness and that is our children. Even though his children were not born from my body, they are still my kids, even though my daughter isn't his she still is his daughter also. These are all my happiness, that some people think is dumb to them and those people will never ever know what real bliss or a blessing is in their lives because they don't know and they don't have the courage to find out what real happiness means in this world. By: Vera Rice

I thoughther childrenthough roughthough roughthinkople find to be dumb, I love being with the man of my dreams even through he is a redneck, ill tempered, smartass and down right truthful. Some people thinks all of those things are wrong in somebody but to me all of those things makes him perfect to me. I love all of his special faults to be his perfection beyond doubt. I love him for who he is and for all he can be. He thinks I’m perfect just the way I am, I’m true to myself, to him, he loves my smartass mouth, my temper, my tears, my fears and most of all he thinks I’m beautiful to the point of making him lose his mind and thoughts. To me he hung the moon and stars for me, he makes all my dreams come true and I’m his one and only. To him I’m his angel who saved him, his beautiful queen who has his back no matter what, who will give him anything he wants, I’m his reason for getting up every day and facing a  world that doesn’t understand him like I do. He tells me that I’m his dream come true, he can’t and won’t picture his life without me. He told me that if I ever left him, he would come after me and bring me back no matter what, because I mean the world to him, he never had a woman like me before, a faithful, honest, trustworthy, kind, sexy, beautiful and down right crazy as hell. I would kill for him, die for him, fight for him and above all I will always love him and never betray him any way. He is my world, my happiness and my one true love. Next to him stands my other happiness and that is our children. Even through his children was not born from my body, they are still my kids also, even through my daughter isn’t his she still is his daughter also. These are all my happiness, that some people thinks is dumb to them and they all are full of crap and they never knew what real happiness means in this world. By: Vera Ricehoughther childrenthough roughthough roughthinkople find to be dumb, I love being with the man of my dreams even through he is a redneck, ill tempered, smartass and down right truthful. Some people thinks all of those things are wrong in somebody but to me all of those things makes him perfect to me. I love all of his special faults to be his perfection beyond doubt. I love him for who he is and for all he can be. He thinks I’m perfect just the way I am, I’m true to myself, to him, he loves my smartass mouth, my temper, my tears, my fears and most of all he thinks I’m beautiful to the point of making him lose his mind and thoughts. To me he hung the moon and stars for me, he makes all my dreams come true and I’m his one and only. To him I’m his angel who saved him, his beautiful queen who has his back no matter what, who will give him anything he wants, I’m his reason for getting up every day and facing a  world that doesn’t understand him like I do. He tells me that I’m his dream come true, he can’t and won’t picture his life without me. He told me that if I ever left him, he would come after me and bring me back no matter what, because I mean the world to him, he never had a woman like me before, a faithful, honest, trustworthy, kind, sexy, beautiful and down right crazy as hell. I would kill for him, die for him, fight for him and above all I will always love him and never betray him any way. He is my world, my happiness and my one true love. Next to him stands my other happiness and that is our children. Even through his children was not born from my body, they are still my kids also, even through my daughter isn’t his she still is his daughter also. These are all my happiness, that some people thinks is dumb to them and they all are full of crap and they never knew what real happiness means in this world. By: Vera Rice

I never would have ever dreamed that one day I could lose my mother, sister, niece and nephew. Until one day my greatest fear came like a thunderstorm in one fateful day. My day started like normal I got up had coffee, played a few games on my phone spending time with my husband, then I was making a very important phone call about a bill. My baby sister beeped in not thinking it was important and I would call her back later after my bill phone call. When she beeped in the second time with my bill phone call, I was upset with her and I switched to her call and I screamed out at her. I said what twice until finally I said hello, she said sissy mama is fine but nobody knows how Missy is doing. She started to tell me that they had been hit head on by a drunk driver, i couldn't listen anymore and I handed the phone to my husband who had to tell me everything after the phone call. I jumped on the web and started calling alot of hospitals but I couldn't find the one they was in. Finally my husband told me to use my head, to calm down and think carefully for a moment, I did what he told me to and I got on Facebook and seen my big sister's post and I called her to find out that she had shattered her knee, our mother was in ICU with a fractured c-vertabae in her neck, a fractured heel on her driving foot five broken ribs and to top it all of her lung collapsed on her. I couldn't listen to my big sister my husband had to get the information for me because I couldn't stand the thought of losing my mother, I was told that my niece and nephew was okay that they only had bruises from the crash and that they was with my stepdad who had raped me at the tender age of twelve. Later that night I talked to him and he told me that my niece and nephew was in Childerns hospital in Columbus, Ohio. I called the hospital and talked to my niece and found out she had a broken arm, and that my nephew only had bruises from the crash. They had me come up to Ohio to help them until they could walk without support and be able to drive themselves to their therapy. It took them two months to get better, now their able to help themselves without me. Now that I know that I could lose my mother because she isn't invisible that she is and has always been fragile. That in one day I could have lost her forever, it would kill me to lose my mother, not only because she is the one who gave birth to me, because she has always protected my big sister, my baby sister and me from the beatings of mine and my baby sister's father. She was always wiping my tears away when I was sad when I was a little girl. She would always kiss my booboos away, she would sing and read me to sleep. She always seemed to be invisible to me, nothing could and never would ever hurt my mother, including death. Death couldn't even touch my mother, but I got the biggest wake up call in my life when I could have lost her. She isn't perfect by no means and she wasn't the greatest mother ever, she has beat me to she has blamed me for things that wasn't my doing, she left me and my baby sister alone without food for two weeks at a time. I became a mother at the age of twelve to my baby sister, but with all of the things she did in the past I still love my mother and I don't ever want to lose her, if it came down to my mother and my father, it would hurt me more to lose my mother than my father and both of my sister's agree with me wholeheartedly. My father and my big sister's father are pieces of shit, but we still love them, but we just love our mother more. So I have faced my greatest fear and I can proudly say that I still have my mother here with me thank God. I never want to feel that scared feeling of thinking that I almost lost my mother, my big sister, my niece and my nephew. I can sleep peacefully knowing that their alive, well and still with me. By: Vera Rice!

She first met the love of her life at the sweet tender age of twelve, he was a sixteen-year-old country redneck .of a young man. She had worked up the courage to tell him her name but on that one small ounce of courage, she didn't only tell him her name she told him a full dialogue of her life. Embarrassed with herself she turned around and walked away from him, telling herself that she was an idiot figuring that he would never want to talk to her at all. For her it was love at first sight, to her surprise after a week he started talking to her, what's more, he was having her deliver his love letters to his girlfriend. Until one day he gave her a letter not for his girlfriend but for her, her heart skipped a beat when she went home. The letter was short and straight to the point it said, 'Do you like me? Because I like you check yes or no.' It was a dream come true for her so of course, she checked yes, they started going out with each other until her mother found out about it and spilled them up. The last time she saw him was on her front porch where they danced, kissed and he told her that he loved her. It was eleven years later when they met up again, she had already had a daughter by an ex-boyfriend who kicked them out for a neighbors wife. They started dating again and now they have been together for four years, at first everything was going great and then he started to change. He now wants to have another woman join them in their bed because that is what he is used to, she doesn't want that but she'll do it for him to make him happy. Her happiness is just being with him and having her daughter also, but sometimes he makes her doubt his love for her. On more than one occasion he told her that he couldn't picture his life without her, he went one step further once by saying if she walked out of their house he would chase her and hunt her down because she means the world to him.  She believes him to a degree but at the same time, she has her doubts about what he says because he has already repeatedly broken her heart and almost her spirit with it. She might just put him to the test one day. By: Vera Rice!