bottomless
the floor expanded,
immense latex plane, broad as the mall itself
"stand erect!" it challenged me
its perpetual stretches' monstrous grid's rubberized respiration
mingled my perspiration's escape's desperation vain
malignant belt's rolling manic undulation extorting adulation
swallows souls into its elastic core, its goal
i spied the exit door, this skyscraper's eleventh floor
lost balance entwined with vertigo
physics mocked my naked dance with her
she spreads herself apart like swollen super heated wax
a monster schism's evil bend
ambidextrous stretch, her prey elongates her womb
my being's atoms' mass a million tons each
immobile rendered, violated tendered
i spin awareness heightened
dante's hell enlightened
floor has me in its hold
compressed hundredfold
up is down, down not found
swim as drown with nausea's bile
elastic surreal, awareness spastic
thoughts taste like dross
reality's loss makes madness a black hole
nothing escapes its bottomless warp
whose floor opens Pandora wide
memories have not passed
softly, radiantly the white sparkle of light flashes
streams through ionic gas atmosphere
to land, to cling
adhere and reflect
onto and off your pearly skin
to flicker past fast
to dance upon your face '
bright smiling shining innocence of love
another time gone by in lower latitude
i remember see
the mile high cumulus cloud
pillar rises majestically
upward to sky of turquoise, aqua baby blue
reminding me of you
from there i walked for on and on
past many endless trees across the inland sea
under innumerable lonely stars and midnight moons
pursued by the ghost of you
lulled by the haunted voice of inner me in solitude
and reached
past across the zenith dome of equinox zone
light of northern hemispheric sun
aurora's yellow blues in greenish light
the wind frigid ionic spins
violently against the boughs of needled trees
arctic chill of frozen tundra mass
you remain my stalwart faithful only lass
and far into the distance
immense rotations of centered memory
still command my grasp of you
cause release my morbid fears repressed
rely upon your loving hope instead
abandon freedom of my own
seek the shelter of you
my loving hope dares to go
follow you i pass
into the everlasting arms of you at last
another mundane Day
the sidewalk lays below my feet,
familiar cracks upon its white hard surface
concrete flat, stretched parallel the distant street
adjacent the asphalt road opaque, heavy black
to the intersection block's traffic light's aluminum post's suspension
geometric intrusion's accompaniments on another near dawn walk
mindless jaunt to the corner fast 'N go convenience store
tree roots rip slowly through, over century's time
buckled chunks, concrete's stowed,
gnarled, thick lipped ledged
sloped askew, blind man's nightmare maze
expose the black dark crevices below, out of which ants, one or two,
forage for things unseen, unknown to my prodding eye
a rolly polly bug of sorts, potential prey, of ant lion saunters,
careful i am to avoid its crush by my awkward strayed feet
elm trees whose culprit roots, like sentries line this sidewalk
of repetitious over years' sundry walks
their shades allow me passage cool,
of summer soltice humid blanket pall of air
cooler than direct of sun whose rays pierce
like the bluejay's mischief stare awaits my near approach
my privacy peace of mind to take
as well my shiny ball point pen to take
its glare would soon as warm me hot
stare me down without the leaves of cover by my sheltered walk
the ambulance i hear before i see it
flashing red of warning lights
vibrates my sidewalk far before its thunderous approach
vibrates my inner ear and latex sandaled feet
my brain alert to inherent adrenaline carefulness cautions vulnerability
there goes me it speaks its dread anxiety sublime
destroy my modicum of calm, obscures the threat of perched bird above
only a matter of time before i too fall
into the crevice of the earth like the sidewalk crack
like the rolly polly bug pursued by ants
like the ants that forage oblivious to tread of flip flopped man
outside their universe inflicts them unintended warp time harm
only a matter of time before i reach my fast 'N go convenience store
whose parking lot now swarms with cherry lights, blue and white flashes'
in midst of teeming hordes of human crowds ambulance in tow
swirling restlessness, oh, ignorance be bliss
i reached across the chasm of time
to apprehend a grasp of my place
in the immeasurable wheel
of functional existence
found it a drywell
for my dysfunctional storm of restlessness
oh, rocky orb, broken earth
my thoughts faltered untamed
by my fallen imperfect's waste
where the vain of senseless tastes leave faint trace of insignificance
without purpose, looms the shallow waterboards
with their malignant threat of drowning's extinction
bad frame of mind
in this anonymous milieu
of thing called life,
its ubiquitous collective conscienceness, so called,
for its minutia of particles of what is called reality,
whereas in truth there is none,
no real truth apart from his,
the creator, blessed be his name
the fool talks loud, sits on his brass idol and frowns at his own works, disdained
the fruit thereof worthless gain
exhaust not yourself in such mindless frames of empty mind that leads to nothingness
blind ear, false heart,
deaf eyes will never see
spend not yourself, nor exhaust the fruit of energy upon that chaff
look across the chasm's hold
upon the dark of humans' works
far off into the distance i see penetrating through my soul
the hungry eyes of threatening ones who'd like a piece of my strength, my will,
to start another war
i must find myself a place of rest far from the beaten's paths
deep within the crags of rocks surrounded by the green of shrubs
of lounging creatures lain at rest breathing in the air's sweet best
the granules of rippled sand
by blowing winds far from the sight of city crowds
untainted by footprints weapons of war and greed
here there is no need for electron feeds
the yaqui indians knew it best
my heart will never fit the mold established by specialized science' roads
i am like a bird caged in bars of iron rusted mold
slay my yearnings for wings of freedom
a word, a text of praise, sugar and fluff
will never do to quench my thirst
i search to renew my every endeavor to maintain a satisfied composure
instead i find superficial film, micromillimeters thick
it vaporizes at my glance tormenting me to take a chance
between life and eternal death
only to escape sudden boredom and murky vexation
inevitably, I exhaust in prayer
waiting for the end of this age
the new dawn, fulfillment of
peace on earth, good will toward men
world spent
i crawled out of a tunnel today
the glare of the sun scorched my tongue
my eyes became tasteless an' sore
even boredom deserted me
loneliness coerced an impulse,
i picked up the newspaper and found it empty
like a trash bin after pickup
the morning's errands tripped me in a blind spot
the lid blew off my patience
aching my muscles an' making my head spin
my nerves twitched an' made me reckless
almost got killed in a near accident
mortality extorted me,
i peered deep into the depths of time
using my mind, ignoring my schedule
its lack of bliss held my breath hostage
when fear tried to wake me
from what i thought was sleep
an e mail informed me it was real
a need for calm promised relief;
i tried to relive what i had dreamed
in deja vu six hours ago
a package arrived at the door
its contents required assembly
my fingers were still stiff
from work on yesterday's hammering
the package slipped,
something broke inside
i read somewhere that four diseases were cured this year
on page nine, i read ten more were newly discovered
out of control, a threat to humanity
but science would prevail
a great chunk of my hope melted
like global warming's glaciers
i caught a frozen glimpse of where i'd fall
for the last time;
i stumbled across the floor
and tried to find myself in the broken mirror
a piece of me shot me a fragmented look
that's all it took
for me to to crawl back to bed
Bridges
freedom's bridge for man does lie
between earth and heaven's chasm vast
unseen by men, but few
angelic beings' reality, man's freedom key
freedom's bridge for man spans hell
whose flames pearled girders lick
its myriad trusses majestic arches stretch
to infinite edge of space
Jacob's ladder spanned to bridge
separation between God and him
beheld spirit beings traversing there
electronic apps for man do bridge
interface between Cloud and his race
internet's marvel communique
if all men's eyes could see, as angels do
man would form an app
search a way to bridge the gap
between God and him
in this hidden world
i walked along the river on the day's borrowed time,
i breathed the alpine air for what i thought a last time
images floated in my mind like a misty veil
the waters' swirling eddies silently flowed awaiting snow's melt,
a void burst within my breast, a hardened plane, rock weight it seemed
the stillness stared at me and asked what was wrong with me
i said, "everything, i cannot find peace as i feel the suffering,
there's people throughout the world wanting to get in,
into my head i feel, into my space i have to share
what they don't have with them
wanting safety, death's violent filthy face to escape
they're only asking is for food and shelter, all from me i feel
a means to earn their keep,
overwhelming a break i need 'fore my head does burst
i have enough to worry 'bout my own
the still of the day did not respond, i walked on as the minutes ticked by
measured by my footsteps in this hidden idyllic world of gems and nakedness
then the river spoke and said, "i hear your cry, i run the course just as you,
mine is to flow downward's pull, master gravity propels me along
heeding the Lord of the universe' call,
i will quench and cleanse the mouths and purge
and fill the emptiness and the lakes and ponds,
i will grow black in some men's filth in my run,
in the end before my fall into chambers deep and wide on land's fall,
i will enter into the oceans and its seas myself be cleansed
with the lord's command rise up to the heavens' first sky atmosphere
invisible by his sun's obeisance and move along carried
by my shapes called clouds and make another run until
i'm told to turn to ice, snow, rain and river run again
i plod on as rain clouds gather high, temperature drops
on i plod along the snowy banks of fallen freezing snow
reminiscent of my own paths of mounded labyrinthic cleaves
lost misplaced, misdirected distraction's depths of lone wanderlust
creation speaks, i hear voices well deep inside my frozen chest
"i am of flesh and blood, not mineral plant or animal
endowed with divine lit powers in his image made
with a will, mine he's given and with it bend the present and the future
change the course of streams and history, effect on time and space
find a place, provident niche, affect my fellow man by chosen grace
return to the race, make a mark for the good however mild
affect a child, woman man like me
to the end of my assignment destiny
vain
i lie helpless, while the machine of winding wind
sullen sky, surging swirling surf
produces cosmic's energy work,
unchecked, inevitably unharnessed
nature's ceaseless moves, heartless machine
perpetually it does its assigned work, yes, it does,
this splendid, beautiful beast, cannot be still
this machine reflects its creator spirit, alpha omega
indefinable, ethereal, purest pure holy word of life eternal
perpetual was, always will, always is, will be, eternity
most high, highest high
she has no limits, within her infinite sphere,
this nature machine; she moves, she builds, breaks and mends
and cycle repeat, perpetual motion machine
has no mind of her own, personified anthropomorphic
like a mother ship with bare breasted prow
chrome emblem in a 50's auto, man built machines,
worshiped adored no less, science mother,
out of caves into marvelous fire freed of stick and stone
borne of man's enlightenment of Godly Renaissance Divine
she rules the earth mechanical, obeisance led governed
"God does not play dice with the universe,"
paraphrased, einstein one time said
in her orbit's dance in frigid space revolving axis swirls
her energy life sustains, gloriously unstatic,
invisibly led by his unseen hand,
she hangs with no observable suspension
mathematical laws by axioms set in glory
no mind can fully fathom, yet praise will times suffice
rocks vibrations, all life quasars sing, little fools mock
even einstein struggled and yielded mind in low humility
to light years' intelligence span of worth
bridging vast gulf between man's knowledge
and cosmic's visible/invisible phenomenon
of nature machines' marvels reflected by her creator's handiwork
i, feeling feeble empty, ponder, living speck of quantum matter
like a dog cocks its head quizzical attribute assigned its canine behavior
so like us humans yet endowed with vast more capacity capable
to understand, yet so much waste upon contentment's urge
to simply plod along the course live die cycle repeat
meaningless sounds of nature purposeless, dull and kill my senses
to eternal end, vain moves of man surround my sense of sight
the touch of empty age advances lonely entropy
it tastes of blank, then moves to hum of vacuum's void
to where and why and how, no questions' end
is that all there is?
patsy cline's sweet voiced asked decades ago
void down low below your sorry navel
can you reach it off your stepping stool?
O wretched small minded atrophied man,
your boast enthroned within
mounted on your paper wall's power receptacle
sustained within your carpeted halls, dimly its feeble lights
on your form and face,
you'll kick and scream when nature is unleashed
by a trumpet's call
how does he who shouts at her complexity dare curse
and yet laugh and smile with face in food and drink
and creature comfort bubble comforts, fist defiant clenched
cash vault sleeps upon his chest;
it crushes on his shriveled naked self
fat encased entombed endowed, his golden cow,
covered in excrement of rust and webs of dust and dirt
face masked of hollow blackness void
flames leap high surround, loudly roar
suck such one in disavows, earthly vice and spoiled forsaken vows
a flicker flash, green grass to brown in instant vaporized
reach out and grasp the hand that helps before too late
oh narrow mind cocooned in spite,
nose held, of no avail, it bleeds
will it help to whine and whelp?
can you stop the force of nature?
in the end, kick and scream on departure's gate
to cross the fiery threshold
O awake! but then again,
who can without his intervention
carried away by a color’s brilliance
plastic fluff of purple divine
blown in by the wind, tattered airy rag tag ball
impaled against the fence, glimmering in the spring sun
catches my eye, wavering strands
thin strips of plastic transparent clear, light seen passing through
violet royal ultra blue stirs 'n vibrates my eyes heart an' soul
delight's joys spill from my chest,
this simple ball of easter basket's fluff
my child's view of gold light full fills,
mind's mirrors reflect all of my sight
purple royal ultra violets what is light,
no dark can take away, carries me away,
i see her with a nest of basket fluff golden straw,
blue sky above flat earth field lays
to horizon's end, wavering white heat waves,
sun's light diffused through pastel blue hues,
silence so thick it rules my ears, vibrate with ringing in the stillness
the speckled eggs of a killdeer's nest on levee's mound
warm with moist air surrounds above, waters terraced below
its lonely crying calls across the vast irrigation's lands no one around
tadpoles, water skeeters abound in the weir's shallow waters, cattails tall
graveled dusty roads to infinity meet diablo foothill mountain range mystery
white dust rouged road, powdered puffed on its back, followed with my eyes
carry me back to former times, memories dance 'round my head
country dizzy delights come alive, her blue jeaned legs' lengthy strides
carried her slim waisted, strong breasted torso, my farmer's girl
her shimmering face bathed in honey amber yellow
country road carry me to her heart of gold, days of old
nostalgia long gone holds, inside folds of my past
her shimmering face bathed in honey amber yellow
antique quiet voices of ghost's in the ground, long gone
telegraph poles worn weathered to infinity
they walk hand in hand with the country road to reach a point far away
carry me past present days, bygone into disappeared history
her shimmering face bathed in honey amber yellow
her antique ghost voice in the ground, long gone
carried to me by a plastic fluff of purple divine
blown in by the wind, tattered airy rag tag ball
pebbles
i threw a pebble in the pond
dumb eyed i stared ’n saw
concentric riffles, ever fluid
rings expanding from its epicenter
plunked
the raging sound of broken stillness
lonely pebble slowly down
settled in the muck
silver rings of plastic water
hit the shore so silently
touched my toes
made me wonder
awash of thoughts, futile grasp
last feeble gasps of world ending
here today, tomorrow gone
alas, last step could be my last
a crashing tsunami oblivion blast
concentric waves of mass humanity
washed ashore for few we cry
lost in pinprick speck of mind
i threw a pebble in the pond
dumb eyed i stared ’n saw
like vaporizing dinosaurs
become the gulf of mexico
extinction of my world