I swear to the dust in my room,

to the silence of the room,

that I have to stop denying,

the fact that I have a crush on you.

I decided to stop lying to myself, as I listen to sad and depressing songs about love.

I thought,

I only like you as a friend.

But I guess not.

I care for you,

not in a platonic way.

I care for you,

in a way beyond platonic.

I can’t describe,

how I am feeling.

I’m still speechless as to why I will have a crush on you.

Trust me, I am still wondering the different reasons why,

what is it that makes you so attractive,

what is it that makes you so adoring.

I can list a few right now,

but

you are a beautiful creature which I can only admire from afar.

Game over, when I get too close.

I guess,

for now,

I just,

have to,

crush

from afar.

#200719

#romance

It has been awhile since I wrote again.

My feelings for you drives me crazy even more.

I realised, my head keeps thinking of you.

I realised, my thought keeps drifting to you.

I realised, my heart keeps wanting you.

What's happening?

You are like a new drug that I can't leave without.

You are like a new addiction that I am super obsessed with.

Help me though.

My feelings are all messed up,

just like how you had messed with my feelings.

I don't know if I am in love with you,

or that, this is how I should be feeling for a really good and close friend.

All I know that

I miss you even more each day.

My day isn't complete when I don't talk to you before I sleep.

Seeing you everyday is a must, if not I'll miss you even harder.

Help!

I'm lost in my world of thoughts.

Sometimes though,

they can be super dark,

like how you don't care for me as much as I do you.

Help!

Save me from my thoughts.

Help me see the reality.

Spell it out to my face.

I need the truth.

Is what i'm feeling right?

Do I have a loose screw somewhere?

If not,

tell me that everything is okay.

#imissyou #romance #mixedfeelings #lost