I'll admit, I could roar along to 80's love ballads cruising through dark mountainsides in the back of someone's pickup truck, I would primp and purse in satin fashion that was the heart of the seventies. I'd fit right in the 60's, fawning over lead singer of the Kinks drinking out of glass bottle of coked up sprite. all of it is so wonderful, but I know it's just certain pieces of it that appeal to me, and being in the farthest point ahead in time I can take what I want from those eras. I'd never feel I belong there fully, just like I don't know.

Something is missing, the rise and fall of a generation of names not spoken yet, empires and rubble of lands mapped line over line. I'm missing something. Something we're supposed to know, like you could walk up to anyone in the street and talk about, something that we could be doing, that you and that person in the street could make plans for. I feel like I was born too early. All the important and wondrous things life has to offer, how much of it isn't even ready to be on our plates yet? it's for another time, in the future.

And because I was born too early, I'm going to die too early too. Slipping away to heaven or nowhere at all, the world has waited all this time to save its greatest surprises and cosmic splendors of secrets us primitive people died to get a whisper of, and spill it out in a blaze of golden ages. Maybe, even worse, I'll be an old and distilled spirit as I watch the generation that was supposed to be mine born. I'll get the tiniest glimpse of my own personal paradise, that given the rights years I could have conquered everything our sultry universe had to hide, and I must close the curtains. Go back to bed.

Honestly, I can't lie here. I definitely wish I was born in the Dark Ages. The crowns, dresses, practically everything of the royal people were beautiful. Even the clothes of the peasants, if that's the right term to use here, are truly the best clothes I've ever seen. Fantasy has got to be my favorite genre, and it's just because of all the clothes, jewelry, and castles that got me to love those. Just imagining running through a castle, or a field, in the fanciest dress and a crown on top of my head just makes me want time travel to be real. Even teh names are gorgeous!