it was epic alright

almost a whirlwind romance

except not romance

they all said it was bad

we'll never be together

hell, we'll never meet

but it worked

for a while

broken pieces and unknown wrongs

shattered me forever

who the hell is he, mocking me?

an epic failure, alright

A teen

with rage issues

and an above-average IQ

I still managed

to embarrass myself

and amaze myself

with my own stupidity

sitting on a toilet

finishing my business

tired and not thinking

with my feet tucked behind me

I reached for the toilet paper

and fell off the "pot."

i was five

crying

walked alone

away from home

beige road

summertime

chest hurt

scolded,

scared

rain puddles

blue sky within

white

clouds above

clouds below

i recalled

mother’s reproach

self pity,

tears followed

jumped into

puddle -

freedom!

emerged

muddy feet!

turned away

headed home

to one room shack