"Trust me" trickles slowly off of his lips and eagerly jumps into my ear

He always said that.

With no support to his words, they hung loose, dangled into a room full of nothing.

.....and yet each time was like the first time, each time I fell foolishly for the same words that had so badly burned me.

With hope that in time my scars would disappear by a change in his character

They never did.

More formed...

......and a lot remains

His captivating eyes, finding their way to mine, looked like the most beautiful sky crossed with liveliest vine and I was mesmerized.

Oh my- with his hair of gold and perfect mold, -if only I'd done what I was told, I wouldn't feel more than she does for him, by tenfold.

He chose her, you see and she tried to warn me. I should've saw the signs but I kept thinking, "Perhaps this one time, I could get the guy without my demise."

So who do you put blame on for this love story gone wrong

Him- I couldn't even if I wanted to

Her- I love her too much and there wasn't anything she could do.

So I'm left with me. Yes, I betrayed myself...for being so blind, for not listening to my screaming mind, sometimes wishing I could rewind, but not to undo what's been done and not to stop what's yet to come but to tell myself he's not mine.

How may nights when I was tired from my day did I stay up to take your pain away?

How many lonely messages did I return when you had nowhere else to turn?

Who was always there for you when you wanted life to end? The one you called a friend?

But here I am alone now with the world crashing down.

Do I hear peep? Do I hear a sound?

All I hear is nothing from my so called friend.

For in the closing moment when our friendship is at it's end.

I'll Find someone else to lean on and depend.