Paralyzed in darkened corridors

my numbness weeps

malignant goodbyes echoing.

A waif cast in the wilderness

empty eyes staring

at my reality of nothingness.

Obscurity hides behind my mirror

weakness in a thousand faces

my mind floating in nowhere space.

Bubble wrap boxes my soul

In a shallow drunkenness

a rolling wash of crushing tides.

Barren cold and thickened walls

opaque veils with dying accent.

Weakened thoughts bleed

in crimson sanguine drops

onto the sterile floor

of my existence.

I am but a stone on the ground

That never learned to feel.

A carved out hole

Where my heart should reside,

Empty and hollow

To match my pride.

Just an anesthesia

For my poor soul

From the pain that I hold inside.

My body's protection

Against itself.

For once you were gone,

There was nothing left

To hold dear

For a house isn't a home

Without you near.

Numb is my favorite defense

How I protect myself from hurtful things

It's how I live through the bad times

It's how I don't dwell on the past

It's how I don't worry about the future

Numb comes after sorrow

Sometimes numb comes before anger

Sometimes numb comes after anger

Anger is better than sorrow

But numb is better than them both

Numb is like floating on a cloud

Drifting right over the top of my ugly life

Aware that all the bullshit is down there

But nothing can touch me here

I'm numb. I'm floating.

I'm on a fluffy puff of purple opium

So high above it all

Unreachable

Numb wraps me in a protective embrace

Numb shields me from my broken heart

And my twisted, broken thoughts

Numb is my bodyguard -

Keeping safe my vulnerable heart

Keeping closed my vulnerable mind

Numb won't let anyone get close to me

Numb loves me

I love numb

I'm gonna be here awhile