Girls don't cry.
I would like to know if any girl or woman here has ever had the experience of being told to hold it in, to not cry. Or just. Built a wall around their heart, so they were cold to people.
If you have not experienced this before but would like to try and write anything based on this, you're fully welcome to do so.
You will never get close to me ever again.
A silent vow as I look out the window,
Avoiding my friend's gaze and the noise
As I try to shake the day off and ward off
The thoughts of blood and pain again.
I am a fool for the last time, that I vow.
Now I am a fool again, falling once more
Though the signs are different now.
I'm older and this one is a lot nicer to me,
Yet I still flashback to that day at lunch,
Looking at what he said about me in my diary,
Promising I will never cry like this again.
Life continued and I played them like puppets,
Saying what they want to here and playing along
Only to pull the carpet out from under them
And walk away grinning, knowing I escaped again
From almost falling and breaking my neck
Thinking there was someone waiting for me below.
Yet I've failed my latest trick and am falling.
But this time, I feel the fear in my throat
And the uncertainty desperately blocking the sun.
I want to believe things are different now,
That I have grown up from everything in the past,
But some things I just can't get over apparently.