Where were you? She asks and I don’t know how to answer - how can I explain I’ve been to the end of the world, the very edge - felt the horizon in my fingers? I can’t even begin to start on the wonders I’ve seen, oh the magic! the creatures. It feels like a distant dream in my atoms. But very real.

Nowhere, I answer. And we both know I’m lying. I can taste the trails of salt, oceans and warm stars in my footsteps as I leave her hanging half outside of the front door and go home.

when I needed you the most

when I could go on no longer

when I couldn't get back up

when I finally gave in

I was always there for you, so where were you?

I paced the silent house.

The too silent house.

I paced for hours,

refusing dinner and water.

Hell, even the damned toliet!

I looked at the clock every second,

disappoited to see how much time had already passed.

I looked out the window at every sound,

disappointed to see a leaf or squirrel.

More hours passed.

The stars came out.

The moon set.

You finally got home,

You finally came to me.

You reeked of perfume

and badly hidden lipstick on your collar.

You looked disheveled.

It didn't hurt that you were cheating

or that you were gone for so long without telling me...

It was the fact that you thought I cared so little

as to not hide your crimes.

"Where were you?"

Where were you,

When our baby first smiled

And said Dadda?

Where were you,

When our son Adam graduated

And earned a scholarship?

Where were you,

When Liz our daughter became ill

And died from the illness?

Where were you,

When I needed you

And wanted you for our anniversary?

Where were you,

When we had a court date

For our divorce?