I saw their faces
after they dismembered my stasis.
The cheers and attacks
made me fear potential chases.
I continued my silence
as I do throughout crisis
and struggled to identify
the logistics of defiance.
The anger stays within
though my patience wears thin
and exacting revenge -
I wouldn't know where to begin.
Their arrogance is haunting,
sadistic and daunting.
I dread showing off,
to feel their eyes wanting.
I am told I am rude,
bitchy; in a mood
for feeling the tip of a blade everyday
You don't know the strength of my attitude.
Birthmark
I have a view over your left shoulder
(though to me it seems to be the right)
and I can see an unmentioned birthmark
one I still haven't mentioned
but one that I think about when I'm not
visiting; being tended to.
Of all the things we never discussed
(and we discussed a lot)
I kept your birthmark
hidden between my breasts
and I consider it
when I'm feeling hungry,
when I'm not visiting;
being tended to.
God is Real
When we say what love is,
it's always so unique, isn't it?
We write it down and remember it.
You.
Love is not a clenched fist.
Love is open palms,
it's sobbing when you get home
from the big send-off
and wishing you had the courage to say
what you wouldn't even dare write down.
That you hold them close in your mind.
That they're perfect,
and it's proof that God is real.
That you know you're childish,
the way you squeeze them tight
and how your heart breaks
when you say goodbye tonight.
And the Devil Makes Three
I am touched
and we become a sunset
and two sets of hands make me feel
delicious and real.
Through these woods
I wish to explore.
Like standing in the middle of the street
in those untame hours.
I saw it written on a bathroom wall,
"We are souls seeking a human experience".
I would credit the writer but she is as mysterious
as our apparent triad.
How I would tell you my unsaid thoughts,
if I believed you would listen.
You Fucked Him (I Know You Did)
Breathless
You suffocate
like Summer cotton.
A false muse
made of quirks and feedback.
Don't go to the show,
that's where she goes,
she calls herself a "ho",
the things she says.
The things she says.
The things she says
written on a
list on each scented breast
watching where your eyes go
so she can eat who you love.
She says you aren't new
though she's the holder
of stolen ideas and
a calculated lifestyle.
She likes that she's a slogan,
a fairy,
a bitch.
Once she passes you through,
you learn to sit
and watch his disenchanted face
when he hears
the things she says.
The things she says, the things she says.
How did we all fall for it?
The things she says, the things she says.
Electric Soda
When she comes she brings the top
dressed to the nines
She's trendy
and it crushes me.
A pure glass of electric soda
and I kiss the ground she walks on.
I wish she wouldn't leave me
but don't you know she's getting on fine?
With every maneuver she grows an inch
adding power to herself
and holding my head underwater.
I wish she wouldn't leave me,
a pure glass of electric soda
and I kiss the ground she walks on.
I decorate myself in shells and seaweed
Because this coastline makes me feel like nothing less.
When the rain makes your cold skin feel warm
and on me you give a parade of kisses,
each one forgiving and thanking,
all the while the waves that crash give me instruction
that I should crash into you.
It's getting late but
I'm not done exploring you yet.