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The concept of death has captivated our imaginations since the beginning of human society. It has formed cultures, defined religions, shaped the course of history. Write about death. It can be lighthearted, humorous, hopeful, respectful, dreading, mournful, optimistic--you can paint it in any light you would like. Any style and format- poetry, prose, story, fiction, nonfiction, etc.
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Salt

When I was seventeen, his mouth tasted of sea water. I lay with him, on a futon mattress at ground level, covered in the freckled light of evening, and I remember thinking that he had brought the ocean with him, that it was inside of him.

I wanted to kiss him again, but I was startled, unsettled, to have tasted of the sea in his mouth. It seemed like a strange metaphor, too perfect of one, explaining something I couldn’t see. Or maybe that’s how it seems now, looking back. Is it possible not to tint our memories with the future, once it is known? I remember at the time feeling the metaphor inside of that taste, brimming with a luminous surface tension, waiting to spill over.

He reached his arm over me, and it was comforting. I lay with my face very close, looking towards his eyes, green flecked with brown, vividly aware, and slightly slanted. He always had a weight to his body, even though he was slender. He was solid and heavy, especially in his legs and hips. Even as a kid, you can see that heaviness in pictures of him. The weight of his body. I think back on this now, with the strangeness of knowing.

He liked to tell me of the first time we met. I was very young at the time, and I’ve never remembered it, but for him it was particularly vivid, because It was his first day on the island after arriving from Egegik. He was nine years old, a few years older than me. They came to our house first - he told me that many times - they came right from the ferry, and we all went to see the Lion King in the movie theater.

He never told me about what it was like, what it felt like, arriving from Alaska with his big sister and his dad, into an all white town with houses built of wood, if he was scared or sad. He just talked about how kind we were to him. He was always like that, grateful for things that I took so wholly for granted.

Years later, my mom told me about how his dad went up to Egegik to get them, about how he had to steal them back. I never saw a picture of his mom. She drowned in the river, or the sea, there in Egegik after he left, like so many of his uncles - six of them, I think.

I remember thinking that it was like some kind curse, like a weird alaskan fairy tale, that brought his family, one by one, drunk, to the water’s edge. I worried about him when he was up there, like that water was calling to him, calling the salt of his mouth back to it, wanting it to wash the sea back out. I envisioned Egegik, the fish and alcohol, the concrete buildings and snowmobiles, and the big family who had given him his caramel brown skin, and slightly slanted eyes. His salty mouth. They were Native, he said. He never gave a tribe name. Just Native, not Aleut.

Looking back, I see how endless time was for me then. I always felt that we would be together someday. There was a certain feeling between us, indescribable, somehow sourced, for him, I think, from that first day, when we greeted him from Egegik. Funny how time shrinks as it goes on, constricting around us as we age, and grow.

When I was 20, his mouth still tasted of seawater. The same flavor, not just the salt, but the brine, seaweed, drying rocks, mud.

He lay in the little wooden house I had built, in the morning, and opened a beer. I didn’t really get it, what that meant. It seemed like an act of rebellion. There was something wild and cool about him, layered in with that gentleness. By the time I understood it, he was already back in Egegik.

I talked with him on the phone a lot after that. I knew in my stomach that he could change back, become sober again. That if I offered myself in his life, he would revive for me, come back effervescent and strong. There was some link, running back through to that heavy footed nine year old, arriving at our house, and it gave me a special power. Such a young thought, but one I still believe. I had moved to a city, and was walking down the alley behind my house. A cat was stuck at the top of a telephone pole, and was up there yowling, and yowling. I held my little flip phone to my cheek, it was getting hot there, and I told him that I wasn’t going to be his girlfriend.

The next time I saw him, years had changed. His body looked broken down, decaying from the inside. From the heart out, from the mouth down. His skin held tides of a different kind, and I didn’t see him in there. The boy with vibrant green eyes was buried in there somewhere, already drowned, one liquid for another.

Time shrank again, smaller still, until all of its possibilities became pricks of light, too small and fragmented to count.

I saw him on the street and I stopped. His heaviness had grown, taken over him. I love you he said, you are family. He was unsteady and full. The feeling of him was so thick, he was blurred, internally, caught in memories that distorted him. I saw him as a memory, then, too, and it sank through me. We never thought it could follow him. That the salt of his mouth could be called from anywhere. From our bay. Right off the dock, in the night. The heaviness of his body pulled him down, down. He held his breath there, I imagine, in the cold green black water, before the ocean came in, at last, to wash itself out.

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Salt
When I was seventeen, his mouth tasted of sea water. I lay with him, on a futon mattress at ground level, covered in the freckled light of evening, and I remember thinking that he had brought the ocean with him, that it was inside of him.

I wanted to kiss him again, but I was startled, unsettled, to have tasted of the sea in his mouth. It seemed like a strange metaphor, too perfect of one, explaining something I couldn’t see. Or maybe that’s how it seems now, looking back. Is it possible not to tint our memories with the future, once it is known? I remember at the time feeling the metaphor inside of that taste, brimming with a luminous surface tension, waiting to spill over.

He reached his arm over me, and it was comforting. I lay with my face very close, looking towards his eyes, green flecked with brown, vividly aware, and slightly slanted. He always had a weight to his body, even though he was slender. He was solid and heavy, especially in his legs and hips. Even as a kid, you can see that heaviness in pictures of him. The weight of his body. I think back on this now, with the strangeness of knowing.

He liked to tell me of the first time we met. I was very young at the time, and I’ve never remembered it, but for him it was particularly vivid, because It was his first day on the island after arriving from Egegik. He was nine years old, a few years older than me. They came to our house first - he told me that many times - they came right from the ferry, and we all went to see the Lion King in the movie theater.

He never told me about what it was like, what it felt like, arriving from Alaska with his big sister and his dad, into an all white town with houses built of wood, if he was scared or sad. He just talked about how kind we were to him. He was always like that, grateful for things that I took so wholly for granted.

Years later, my mom told me about how his dad went up to Egegik to get them, about how he had to steal them back. I never saw a picture of his mom. She drowned in the river, or the sea, there in Egegik after he left, like so many of his uncles - six of them, I think.
I remember thinking that it was like some kind curse, like a weird alaskan fairy tale, that brought his family, one by one, drunk, to the water’s edge. I worried about him when he was up there, like that water was calling to him, calling the salt of his mouth back to it, wanting it to wash the sea back out. I envisioned Egegik, the fish and alcohol, the concrete buildings and snowmobiles, and the big family who had given him his caramel brown skin, and slightly slanted eyes. His salty mouth. They were Native, he said. He never gave a tribe name. Just Native, not Aleut.

Looking back, I see how endless time was for me then. I always felt that we would be together someday. There was a certain feeling between us, indescribable, somehow sourced, for him, I think, from that first day, when we greeted him from Egegik. Funny how time shrinks as it goes on, constricting around us as we age, and grow.

When I was 20, his mouth still tasted of seawater. The same flavor, not just the salt, but the brine, seaweed, drying rocks, mud.
He lay in the little wooden house I had built, in the morning, and opened a beer. I didn’t really get it, what that meant. It seemed like an act of rebellion. There was something wild and cool about him, layered in with that gentleness. By the time I understood it, he was already back in Egegik.

I talked with him on the phone a lot after that. I knew in my stomach that he could change back, become sober again. That if I offered myself in his life, he would revive for me, come back effervescent and strong. There was some link, running back through to that heavy footed nine year old, arriving at our house, and it gave me a special power. Such a young thought, but one I still believe. I had moved to a city, and was walking down the alley behind my house. A cat was stuck at the top of a telephone pole, and was up there yowling, and yowling. I held my little flip phone to my cheek, it was getting hot there, and I told him that I wasn’t going to be his girlfriend.

The next time I saw him, years had changed. His body looked broken down, decaying from the inside. From the heart out, from the mouth down. His skin held tides of a different kind, and I didn’t see him in there. The boy with vibrant green eyes was buried in there somewhere, already drowned, one liquid for another.

Time shrank again, smaller still, until all of its possibilities became pricks of light, too small and fragmented to count.

I saw him on the street and I stopped. His heaviness had grown, taken over him. I love you he said, you are family. He was unsteady and full. The feeling of him was so thick, he was blurred, internally, caught in memories that distorted him. I saw him as a memory, then, too, and it sank through me. We never thought it could follow him. That the salt of his mouth could be called from anywhere. From our bay. Right off the dock, in the night. The heaviness of his body pulled him down, down. He held his breath there, I imagine, in the cold green black water, before the ocean came in, at last, to wash itself out.
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Pilgrimage

Three little days passed by

they each cradled something in their arms

flagging, trailing dusty winds, their heels thick 

from walking

all this way 

just to reach us

and keep on going

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Pilgrimage
Three little days passed by
they each cradled something in their arms
flagging, trailing dusty winds, their heels thick 
from walking
all this way 
just to reach us
and keep on going
#time 
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Sigh

Sigh but don't sigh hard

your breath will blow the trees 

open

their faces will catch 

in the light,

open

amazed

they will struggle

their branches 

against the breeze

to become again 

closed.

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Sigh
Sigh but don't sigh hard
your breath will blow the trees 
open
their faces will catch 
in the light,
open
amazed
they will struggle
their branches 
against the breeze
to become again 
closed.


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To the lonely

You are lonely. The trees tangle in your hair. They offer no words to coil in your ears. They cannot lean in against your back, wrap you from behind with leafy bluster, tickle your neck with a pink tongue.

You are lonely. I see you. Don't worry. Things will change. This is the nature of everything we know. You can open, and let in the light. The trees can call your name, in a thousand voices, high and warbling. The soil can feel you through twining white mycelium. 

You must let them. You must let me. You must let your sister, your brother, your mother, your friend. You must trust your mouth with love. You must trust your eyes with their eyes. You must feel the breath on your neck, as your lover sleeps, they are what they are, you are what you are, this is the key. 

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To the lonely
You are lonely. The trees tangle in your hair. They offer no words to coil in your ears. They cannot lean in against your back, wrap you from behind with leafy bluster, tickle your neck with a pink tongue.

You are lonely. I see you. Don't worry. Things will change. This is the nature of everything we know. You can open, and let in the light. The trees can call your name, in a thousand voices, high and warbling. The soil can feel you through twining white mycelium. 

You must let them. You must let me. You must let your sister, your brother, your mother, your friend. You must trust your mouth with love. You must trust your eyes with their eyes. You must feel the breath on your neck, as your lover sleeps, they are what they are, you are what you are, this is the key. 
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1. Morning

The dense beast of night

turns its white belly upwards

presses handfuls of mountain 

into the pale fingers of dawn

breaks the morning light

into a thousand trilling voices

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1. Morning
The dense beast of night
turns its white belly upwards

presses handfuls of mountain 
into the pale fingers of dawn

breaks the morning light
into a thousand trilling voices
#naturepoetry  #morningpoem  #dailypoem 
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Two lover's voices - Haiku

I walk through the day 

Following the leaves you left

riding your tailwinds

Something is broken 

The owl cries through the night's chill

you should have tried more

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Two lover's voices - Haiku

I walk through the day 
Following the leaves you left
riding your tailwinds


Something is broken 
The owl cries through the night's chill
you should have tried more
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2.

The two yellow feet

that cross each other

in our enamel sink

no longer white but 

filled with distinct pieces of 

a tiny rooster's body - they are special. 

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2.
The two yellow feet
that cross each other
in our enamel sink
no longer white but 
filled with distinct pieces of 
a tiny rooster's body - they are special. 

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1.

When a friend tells you

that they lost something

it is good to ask them 

was is special?

 

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When a friend tells you
that they lost something
it is good to ask them 
was is special?
 



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acceleration

The trap door of

morning falls open

I hang, suspended 

on the threads 

of sleep

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acceleration
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Seeds for You

I see you, staring down into the pool of your light filled machine, gazing, your own reflection obscured by words, these words, which you are reading, entering your mind, via the cortex, visual, being patterns, recognized, being categories, categorized, placed, as on parchment, as though to be dried, as though for collection, collecting, you trickle through, aware, of these words, falling, falling down if I say falling, tripping, your tongue is involved, but it is a, backseat, driver, its only job, a minor flexing, for inward pronunciation, inside, above it, sounds which it will never, itself, form into complex and uniform vibrations which would be put into the world to be caught, exclusively, that is, for only the ears, specifically your ears, specifically, my ears, which will not catch anything, except the tipping sound, keys going, which I can hear, but which will, by the time you are seeing this, be over, expired, this will be no longer a process, it will, cease to be, in motion, it will be a record, of the event, of my thinking, the cortex, again, I think, but not only, it is, a whole body, it is, a whole mind, it is visual, black and white, symbols, it is, thought, it is, distilled, a distillation, I am reaching you, am I reaching you? 

I am trying, typing, to get through some membranous barrier that exists, inherently, between us. This inter cyber web that has the both of us snared, me, on my end, putting in, you, on your end, gathering out, getting something, somewhere, or, are we? Maybe not. I have a feeling though, it is not from here, the cortex, which here is merely the translator - translating for us, from me, to you, this feeling, so that you might come to see it, read it, understand, and through some strange human from of transmutation, come to feel it, too. The feeling is of seeds, gathering, and ripely, and about to spill, from the grassy fist, of their mother, and about to burst, and what will come of them, the progeny, the bursting forth, the new life, as solitary, they become, another, this is how my thoughts are, now, and if they land on your soil, then perhaps they will bloom, and so, I say them again, and again, silently, and you pick them up, if you like, and gather them, save them, put them by, for future use, in your garden, which, in this case, is your cerebellum, and I say that I want you to have these seeds, and I say that they are seeds of something good, and that is because, what I want you to know, is that perfection, it is impossible, and creation, it must be made free from the tyranny of 

perfection's grasping groping choking distorting disorienting fist, because perfection,

is only a concept,

and concepts,

only have power if we give them power

and creativity

is not a concept

creativity is a force

of nature. 

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Seeds for You
I see you, staring down into the pool of your light filled machine, gazing, your own reflection obscured by words, these words, which you are reading, entering your mind, via the cortex, visual, being patterns, recognized, being categories, categorized, placed, as on parchment, as though to be dried, as though for collection, collecting, you trickle through, aware, of these words, falling, falling down if I say falling, tripping, your tongue is involved, but it is a, backseat, driver, its only job, a minor flexing, for inward pronunciation, inside, above it, sounds which it will never, itself, form into complex and uniform vibrations which would be put into the world to be caught, exclusively, that is, for only the ears, specifically your ears, specifically, my ears, which will not catch anything, except the tipping sound, keys going, which I can hear, but which will, by the time you are seeing this, be over, expired, this will be no longer a process, it will, cease to be, in motion, it will be a record, of the event, of my thinking, the cortex, again, I think, but not only, it is, a whole body, it is, a whole mind, it is visual, black and white, symbols, it is, thought, it is, distilled, a distillation, I am reaching you, am I reaching you? 
I am trying, typing, to get through some membranous barrier that exists, inherently, between us. This inter cyber web that has the both of us snared, me, on my end, putting in, you, on your end, gathering out, getting something, somewhere, or, are we? Maybe not. I have a feeling though, it is not from here, the cortex, which here is merely the translator - translating for us, from me, to you, this feeling, so that you might come to see it, read it, understand, and through some strange human from of transmutation, come to feel it, too. The feeling is of seeds, gathering, and ripely, and about to spill, from the grassy fist, of their mother, and about to burst, and what will come of them, the progeny, the bursting forth, the new life, as solitary, they become, another, this is how my thoughts are, now, and if they land on your soil, then perhaps they will bloom, and so, I say them again, and again, silently, and you pick them up, if you like, and gather them, save them, put them by, for future use, in your garden, which, in this case, is your cerebellum, and I say that I want you to have these seeds, and I say that they are seeds of something good, and that is because, what I want you to know, is that perfection, it is impossible, and creation, it must be made free from the tyranny of 
perfection's grasping groping choking distorting disorienting fist, because perfection,
is only a concept,
and concepts,
only have power if we give them power
and creativity
is not a concept
creativity is a force
of nature. 






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