face
you almost drooled looking at me
i caught you and asked what the face was for
you pretended it was just your tired face
but i know your faces. i know all of your faces.
the tired face
the sad face
the warm face
the cold face
the happy face
the mad face
the stoned face
the bold face
you say just tired
i said oh why so tired
even though i knew it was
that she’s-fucking-magic face
that she’s-got-me-in-a-trance face
that i want to touch your hands face
That come closer face
That mesmerized face
and you knew I knew
but you pretended i wasnt pretending so you shrugged and looked away with
that smug face
that scared face
that boy face
that love face.
i dig deeper when i speak softly saying
oh you should get sleep maybe
and i grab my bag and went to leave and
you reached across and grabbed my wrist
and there there there was
that no face
that yes face
that love face
that please face.
i smirked and you begged
with that sad-puppy-eyed-face
so i lost my train of thought and
nodded ok ok ok ok ok
cause I wanted to please
that handsome face
that pleading face
that cmon-just-stay face
that don’t-leave-face.
yeah,
I still know all your faces
and my eyes miss your heart
and how on your sleeve it was placed;
I mean I still want every face
especially the ones I can’t shake:
that I wanna see you everyday face
that I’ll even chase face.
that I’ll never make you wait face.
Still I know I know I know
that without me you wear a new everyday face:
that sad face
that regret face
laced with
that pride face
mixed with
that why face
that rage face
that i-need-to-cry face.
that I-miss-her-when-I-wake-face
that I-pretend-I’m-doing-fine-face.
that maybe-she-wasnt-right-for-me-face
relapsed with
that when-do-I-stop-pretending face
always ending with
that heartfuckingbroken face.
yeah,
I still love all your faces—
but I deserved one you refused to give
I deserve one you are to afraid to say you make
(even those I always felt it from the corner of my eye)
that you’re-the-one-I-love-face
that I-can-look-you-in-the-eye-face
cause I’m-not-fucking-afraid-anymore face
and say with those brown eyes that
you’re-the-light-of-my-life face—
the one I saw the first time my face met your face.
the one you can’t accept is your fate face:
the one I hope isn’t the going to be that
it’s too late face.
