The destruction known as doubt
The beast wants inside,
Scratching at the walls,
Biting the peelings away.
It's trying to break everything,
It's goal is to cause chaos,
to twist you inside out.
Oh god it's broken through,
I can feel it digging inside,
Creating darkness throughout.
I've got to fight it,
It can't get control over me,
I need to throw it out.
Tearing at my walls,
Ripping wholes in my very soul,
Infecting me with its tar.
I'm reaching out for help,
Please will you stop this,
Only you can save me.
You don't seem to understand,
how much I wish to stay yours,
I need you to be my pillar.
Help me know you're here,
Keep me close,
Don't let them take you from me.
Words fail when it comes to you, my love
It would be so easy to write a bunch of words on paper and dedicate it to you,
But that's not how this works. I mean, how can I possibly write how much I love and care about the girl who has put a constant smile on my face since day one? How can I even attempt to tell you that in the very center of my soul, your name is carved with the infinity symbol next to it? In what way can I ever begin to tell you how you make me want to become a better person, a person that can and will give you everything you will ever need and ever want without question?..
Words can only scratch the surface of what my heart and soul feels when it comes to you and who you are to me..
I can try and write everything down, but so much would still be missed, and so much more would go without being spoken. You're my sunshine, my shining star on dark nights. You're the warmth that surrounds me wherever I go. You're the perfection in my imperfect world. You are the very person I could spend my entire life looking for, if only to spend my last five minutes on this earth with you finally in my arms and telling you how happy I was to have finally found you.
These words are all from my heart, and the emotion behind them are from my soul, but... My heart and soul don't know how to say all that they feel.. There exists no words for such strong emotions. The strongest word I know of, is love, and even that doesn't seem to fit with how strongly I feel about you. I will never leave, never betray, never regret, and I will never stop loving you. You are my everything and more, my happily ever after, my forever and always, and baby, as long as I'm still breathing, that is never going to change.
Well, that’s easy.. Umm... Wait.. Give me a minute...
I'd have to pick both Anne Rice, for her engaging and oh so exquisite penmanship, as well as her vampire chronicles and her recent start at the Werewolf mythology, and Mr. Dean Koontz. I have 84 of his books and still counting, he has been my favorite author since grade school.
Nemo
I travel to and fro,
A nomad of grouping.
A stranger with a perplexing mindset.
Up tight yet relaxed,
Straight edge ideals in a communistic society.
I am alienated by those I identify with,
I can't keep up with the ideals of the times.
Set in my ways, with an agenda that differentiates me from so many but should bring me closer to others.
I become a Nemo, a nobody..
None of the sort
I have no agenda to conform to a set of restraints. Sure, people have their reasons, most are extremely militant about it. "No one on this planet should eat another living being!", they would yell, yet, have they forgotten vegetation does not grow everywhere? For instance, in Russia, if not cattle, sheep, or hog, many would starve due to the harsh winter climate. Same with those who live in Greenland, or even Alaska. Would you make a person relocate because of your own personal agenda? And even if no militant intent was detected, I would still rather stick to my own lifestyle of healthy meats while also eating a good portion of greens.
Hopeful wishing
One night, I dreamt I was the perfect man for you, the one star than shined brighter than all the rest.
I held all the answers to every one of your problems, I even held all the right words to say when doubts started to cloud your vision.
I lived up to the standards you live by, and kept up with your hectic lifestyle better than most...
Then I woke up. You're laying beside me, curled up in my arms with your beauty breaking through the darkness of the room. Out of all the men who could have swept you off your feet with more charisma and suave, why did you settle for me? How can I possibly live up to what I'm suppose to be, when I can't even pretend to bring to the table what all the others have to offer you..