Please see me 

I'm trying to be

everything you saw in me.

If you can't be here with me

please say that you'll watch me

grow and fail and change.

My feet are too big to wear this type of shoe. I won't date that boy because everyone will laugh at how much taller I am. My jeans are too short. I'm not adorable or cute like the other girls. I weigh so much more than my friends. I feel like my footsteps make the walls tremble. I won't even try to wear dresses or jewelry. I am stuck in this uncomfortable body for the rest of my life. I can never be just right. 

I swallowed my pride for you. A piece of me died for you. I never believed I could be so vulnerable. You stopped missing me when we were apart. I held open my weary eyes waiting for you to reply. My goodnight wishes never came and I slept in uneasy loneliness. I love you's were less often and awkwardly returned. I was yearning for the paradise we'd stayed in before. I still am. You called me that evening when you were tired of me at last. The only thing I remember saying was "I'm gonna go now." I didn't dare cry until the connection was cut. You couldn't know that I felt for you. In anger and bitterness I hear your name. I won't talk about you and I don't feel the same. You're a coward and a child and you'll miss me one day. When the one you left me for gets boring like I did. I wish I could warn the other little girls like me to stay away from boys who will take and take and take from their full hearts, just to build themselves up. There is no way to help girls like me. I will love and give and be torn apart. I will be driven to hate. Then, I will love again.