Starlight, starnight,

leader lead the way to win this fight

Starlit, my heart beats with every word you say and somehow warmth creeps in down the sewers to my brain and hope flickers in and out, brighter, brighter, for I trust you in this path to self-redemption, in this gentle, sweet embrace you're teaching me to give myself

Leader, fighter, your gentleness is like no other, you fill so many with such a mighty power, do you even know how many you've given hope and a thirst for life and laughter

Leader lead us through the night, your realm and ours, where we the stars and you the moon, where you the stars with all your brothers, and us the moon, the dust, all the little pieces of our souls and all that dark matter, all in your hands molded to be brighter, lighter until our sins are the ones that give us power and we fly on healed broken wings of love and laughter

#poetry #bts

when we are together, my dear

we are all flushed skin

and softer bones

melted hearts

and trembling sighs

at a mere thought of you

i go warm,

and in me and around me,

flowers grow

furiously, magically blooming year round

you are the gentlest summer breeze

pressing sweet kiss after sweet kiss

to my burning cheeks

you are the blessed cool water

washing away my every fear

safely covering all my tears

until it's just us, my dear,

flushed, but alive,

soft and loved, on every side

#poetry #love

once i closed my eyes

and i laid back, looked inside

it was a crazy lonely place

a hollow, dirty grave

my breath shuddered in like winter wind

and hawled out like a scream

and all those tiny, broken pieces shook and clinked

and glass broke

as it fell like tears

like rain

upon the ground

of my troubled, blackened, bruised, bleeding heart

my overfilled,

beating, living heart

i stood there,

i took in all the hurts of the past

inventory is always hard

fixing scars isn't like fixing cars

but fuck i can fix one

and i have time

(i can't fucking drive)

#poetry

give me that, i'd tell the ancient gods

snatch the golden wreath off their numb fingers

turn my back to be struck

they don't know the power i hold

they don't know i'm so beautifully in love

and when i reach you

oh, they won't be there

they wouldn't know what to do with

a love so tender as yours

you'd blind Apollo, it wouldn't be fair

before you they wouldn't dare breathe, let alone

raise a divine voice

lest i curse them with eternal despair

hey dreamy,

can i get a sunlight smile?

can i get on your sunwarmed bed cover?

i'd like to spend the night here

right in the spot you pressed your hand into

let the moon see me melt in the memory of your embrace

and if i am daring, may i

oh, may i know where i could press my face

hello, my name is ever sleepy

can i ask you run me a mile?

can i ask you take a photo of the softest kitten pile?

may i ask to see you gorgeously riled?

i just want to see your smile

i wish you to be always warmly covered

safe, my gentle springblossom love,

i wish you to be safe, yellow

wish your heart could be as ever mellow

first you see the shine

of it and then you feel the warmth

all is cold until you take a breath

and step forth

the light embraces you,

it's the gentlest lover you'll ever know

unless it's winter and she's playing with deception

but even then her eyes still sparkle like a doe

winter, spring

we always love her

for when she's gone it's cold

and desolate and we can't escape our thoughts

but she, oh she, the light

and the sun itself,

how they help my mind!

and when my body wilts they come

with their sweetest kiss

and in their arms

i am safe behind my lids

paint splatters like tears across your flesh

and i shudder at the thought of you

soft blues, baby boy blues

as liquid skies on flushed skin

softer still pinks,

tender flower petals in bloom,

suns rise on your skin, my sweet

stars further down like glitter

as your sweet voice calls to me

aquiver, pleading

and i, helpless, the admirer

to your spread wings

to your dance among the stars,

stars as the ones in your eyes, my love

i've discovered universes in your sweet gaze

tasted heaven, drank with gods in your lips

and my heart has been filled time and time again

by your sweet voice, sweeter touch,

all your

love

and when my fingers are entwined with yours,

twined as hopelessly as our hearts,

i will paint with lips and gaze and love alone,

I will paint you a thousand times over

lately i dream

it's a no good way to be

i keep seeing bad things

keep thinking i will sink

when i know i have been able to swim

been in the middle of a vast blue sea

for years, sweet

and is this you or is it me?

will i drown if i let myself even a little bit down?

have i become fish enough to take a hit and still

keep myself up?

hey pretty,

i dreamed your face

it was the warmest i had ever felt

hey beauty,

i think of your gentle hands

and my heart weeps

(heart in my throat,

in the warmest sunlit pit,

my lips to your precious skin)

hey softie,

have i mentioned of my love?

have i told you how good you make me feel?

have i promised you not to die

to thrive

right there with you?

you see a crack and you pet it down

gentle it into a crease and then

a simple line

he takes the crack and rips me apart

looks at all my broken parts

and kisses them one by one

and in the end he

makes me anew, a little strange

bathed in his unnatural, warm light

i can't

i'm not a healer

not my mouth and not my arms

i wish i was sometimes

wish i could put you back together

surer, sweeter than ever

but i can't

i can love and i can write

and send you tea

or bring myself like some kind

of a poor consolation prize

'here, you might be sad but

hold me close and i will cry'

#poetry