The Forever Man
On the third day of always
The forever man arrived
With a bag full of yesterdays
That had somehow survived
He had transcended time
And flown across space
For he'd learned of our crime
And he knew what we'd face
Our folklore had told
That when ours was done
The new time and the old
Would just melt into one
He'd been to forever
And thus he was named
But he didn't know whether
We could justly be blamed
We were given a world
And we ruined its past
When its future unfurled
It just couldn't last
With so many now dead
And more death on its way
He cradled our head
And showed us yesterday
Like a slideshow from god
What we had was on view
The green where we trod
And the oceans when blue
But with each passing shot
All the greens turned to brown
We'd put a match to the lot
And in black seas we'd drown
We realised too late
Why this man from elsewhere
Was showing us our fate
When the time's past to care
He said 'Know your sin'
As his time overflowed
After pulling the pin
So our star would explode
On the fourth day of always
We were finally gone
With nothing but haze
For the moon to pull on
And the man from forever
Knew that there'd be more
He just hoped that he'd never
Need knock on their door...
ben
"i make everyone uncomfortable,"
you said
as you stood up
from the heavyweight chair
and announced why you were here with us in group.
you did not make anyone squirm,
but we couldn't say that
unless we raised our hands
and asked for permission,
so we all kept our shaking fingers
in our laps
and let silence spread
like the plague.
your chestnut brown eyes hid behind thick-framed glasses,
but they looked kinder than everyone else's-
reflected hints of hope hung in your pupils.
your words sounded like recovery
and your crooked smile looked like
you were getting there.
at snack time,
we played five rounds of uno together
and you made me laugh
for the first time
since my admission.
you cracked jokes and your knuckles
repeatedly-
so much so that
it almost felt like
we weren't in a hospital,
sitting in plastic chairs
across from each other's
inpatient bracelet.
we'd never spoken before that
and
we never spoke again.
to tell the truth,
i don't think you even knew my name.
you left early the next morning
and you did not say goodbye to me.
considering that we were both just patients passing through,
that was fine.
i guess i didn't impact your life as much as you impacted mine.
I believe I don’t know if I’m right
5/10/15
I promise they'll never find us
I could care less that this is all a mistake
Gods were made by men
Oranges made by anonymous
Paintings made by your hands and past experiences
Don't have long discussions with the mad
Don't play a roaring game with the lion of the pride
The occult shops
The many boxes of pandora
I believe I'm right when I say I don't know if I'm right
I trust the humbleness in that statement
And I allow that question to be a thesis I write for the days of my life
The leaves are whistling
The sun has been coerced by grey clouds
I'm whistling
And I have been coerced by grey clouds
I...
I failed
I could've...
I should've...
I could...
I can't...
I shouldn't have...
I couldn't have...
I'll remember this moment.
I'll forget the important ones.
I'll embarrass myself
I'll embarrass my family
My friends
Acquaintances
Strangers
Everyone
I'm self-absorbed, but not confident enough...
I'm too quiet, but too loud...
I'm not trying, but I'm trying too hard...
I'm too skinny, but I eat too much...
I say depressing things, but I act superficial...
I have too much on my mind, but I'm too dismissive...
I always talk about my problems, but I can't make small talk...
I'm exaggerating
I'm telling the truth
I need to stop
I have to keep going
I forgot what day it is
I forgot what day it was
I forgot to say goodnight
I forgot to say goodbye
I'm a terrible friend.
It's late. I'm tired.
Go to sleep, brain. Please.
expectations
define love
is it smiles exchanged and crushes denied
on the playground beneath cloudless skies
running away to giggle and hide
is that love?
define love
is it being stuffed in a pleather seat
as the bus bumps down the street
his smile crooked as his teeth
jostled jumbled and almost free
is that love?
define love
is it the crunch of autumn leaves
crumbling beneath trudging feet
as your hands almost nearly meet
and his voice you can feel tingling
midnight whispered phone calls ringing
is that love?
define love
is it miles apart in the middle of the night
recounting memories
is it fight or flight
for a future somehow combined
is that love?
define love
is it three years of promises
naked bodies and common knowledge
everything that hurts forgotten
comfort when you're feeling rotten
is that love?
define love
is it the pen and ink
straining your every exhale
staining your entrails
seeping through pores like rainwater set to boil
is that love?
because if it's not I don't know what is
and if I'm lost then I don't know where I live
because this is home and your arms are bliss
show me truly what love is