Dear Nina (Parts 1, 2, & 3)

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I think I finally understood or even felt what it meant to let go of your loved one in the moment of their passing. Everything is still. Numb. I caught of glimpse of what the heart and mind could look like the moment after. They are candles burning bright and slowly as dawn arrives. They are the snow melting and the earth welcoming him back home. They are a bouquet of hand picked flowers from your closest of friends…hands covered in blood and tears

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It hurts. It just really hurts to see two people you love in pain. To see one alive and the other dead. How she screams holding his still & peaceful body, but you must tell her to let him go. To go to his God even though you believe in something entirely different. You must tell her the truth; that he loved her more than anything, that loving her made him better, & how it made all the difference in the world.

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And the world will go on. And change. And in his loving memory you will continue to live; through the painful & loving moments. You will live and be okay.