Dear Nina (Parts 1, 2, & 3)
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I think I finally understood or even felt what it meant to let go of your loved one in the moment of their passing. Everything is still. Numb. I caught of glimpse of what the heart and mind could look like the moment after. They are candles burning bright and slowly as dawn arrives. They are the snow melting and the earth welcoming him back home. They are a bouquet of hand picked flowers from your closest of friends…hands covered in blood and tears
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It hurts. It just really hurts to see two people you love in pain. To see one alive and the other dead. How she screams holding his still & peaceful body, but you must tell her to let him go. To go to his God even though you believe in something entirely different. You must tell her the truth; that he loved her more than anything, that loving her made him better, & how it made all the difference in the world.
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And the world will go on. And change. And in his loving memory you will continue to live; through the painful & loving moments. You will live and be okay.
Another untitled piece
We were flying,
riding on a high,
an ecstasy that had us soaring through the sky,
faster than anything,
but the only thing that can stop you,
that can freeze that moment
is the death of a friend.
And I think it’s that fall from all the way up there that hurts.
But it hurt the most in the moments we were falling.
Just in between living with those tears and heartaches
Just a thought
Just breathe, please
Through the dark skies
Pouring rain
All the pain you have.
It'll be a long journey
Through the vortex of emotions you have
Locked away in your heart,
But take a moment
Breathe through it all
And one day you'll find yourself on the other side of the field
Looking up at a clear blue sky
And hopefully you'll realize that you made it
You're okay. You're here.