When you’re gone.

Cigarettes become like candy and liqueur like juice. The bruises on my heart are all from you. Every time I see your face, three years flash infront of me, no matter how hard I try they can't be erased. When someone who was your everything, every atom in your body, and you lose them, it's pain, an ache, a fire that burns inside of you that never goes out. They tell you to love with everything you've got, but what happens when you give it all and end up with nothing.  Once so full of life, now crippled by heartbreak, by the loss of you. Sunshine, becomes clouds colored black like the sky they sit in. Rivers flowing with clear crisp water, now look like oil spills traveling down the earth. The beauty in everything I saw, turned to ash and for a while it stayed lit with embers, but soon it died out completely. I'll spend forever trying to re ignite the beauty that was my everyday with you.