Terminal Tragedy

I told you to go, 

    should have begged you to stay

The death that I face somehow 

    got in the way

When you walked out 

    my heart couldn't beat

When the door closed couldn't 

    stay on my feet

Now I am left here to alone 

    face the end

Something I should not face 

    without my best friend

I may have months and 

    I may even have years

Without you my time left is 

    tainted with tears

Why I couldn't pour out the 

    truth in your ear

Was caused by my ego and 

    rooted in fear

Your love was all that I 

    had to stay sane

The only thing I had to help 

    me face the pain

I told you that my love had 

    come to an end

To save you the horror of 

    death you would tend

Was it so selfish to spare 

    you the mourn?

Was it my right not to 

    leave you forlorn?

If you knew the truth would I 

    burn from the flame

Of the heat of your wrath 

    as you scream out my name?

When I am gone and my 

    soul is set free

I hope you find peace and 

    beg you forgive me.

(For all who are terminally ill and choosing to face it alone... You don't have to.)