More than that

When we walked arm in arm

I felt like we can throw away

The forces of our past

And I know too

It's been the hardest days for you

Let's throw them out the window

That's what those lovers do

/Down by the river - Milky Chance/

''Daaaad, my head hurts. Don't make me go to school.. please?''

''Jane, it's just your brain trying to comprehend its own stupidity. Now, get up!''

''Ugh, fine. I'll have my revenge in the basketball court tomorrow.''

I guess dad was right about the fact that I shouldn't of gone to Jacks game yesterday, but it wasn't my fault that I had accidentally tripped over something and ran into wall.

Clumsy, that's one way to describe me..

Anyways Jack is my best friend, I couldn't of not gone.

I quickly got up and ran outside, picking up my backpack and lunch on the way out.

And there he was, still as handsome as ever.

''Hey there, fatty. How did the game go yesterday?'' I said as I jumped on his back so he could give me a piggy ride to school.

Not to mention, hot back. This guys over here was my bestie since I could remember myself. Well, not really, but I remember on the first day of school I was sitting all alone and this guy started bullying me, but then this cute guy with hazel eyes and light brown hair came over and ironically smashed his cupcake all over the guys face. The bully started crying, and Jack told me that I will have to pay for that cupcake with friendship. And I did, the whole time until this very day.

''Who's the one to talk. Jane, you're starting to get heavier day by day. But we won, obviously.'' I could feel him grinning like an idiot. What can I do if my best friend's a fool..

''Soo.... How's things going with Elena?'' Elena was his crush. A really shy, yet beautiful girl with an amazing gift - singing. As well as she was blind enough that she couldn't see Jack drooling over her.

''It's fine..'' He was blushing, my adorable bestie was blushing over girl. I need to write that down somewhere, because this was a first in our long friendship.

''Did you guys finally ki-'' I couldn't finish my sentence, as Jack had already placed a hand on my mouth, seeing Elena approach.

This girl was whole other level of beautiful. I assume her dark brown hair and blue eyes didn't make Jack resisting her any easier.

I smirked. ''Go, get her, tiger!'' I shouted so Elena would see us and got off Jacks back to push him to her side. I hugged Elena and she blushed, how cute she was..

''Gotta go guys, see you later!'' I winked at Jack and left.

Obviously I was just giving them some extra private time together. Their relationships were only starting to bloom like cherry blossoms.

I felt myself bumping into someone thanks to my daydreaming.

''The fuck? Are you blind or something?'' I knew this voice. It was Nick. My new, hot, not to mention annoying classmate.

I just kept on walking, ignoring him, because I couldn't be bothered to fight in the morning and this guy was pure trouble.

''Are you ignoring me? Jane get back here.''

I began to run when someone suddenly grabbed my arm and pulled me up the stairs that went to the schools roof. I opened my mouth to scream but then I felt someone starting to kiss me. It was a familiarly harsh kiss.

I pulled him away and he began to kiss my neck.

''Nick.. stop, we can't.. Not here.'' I said, feeling my legs go weak.

Yes, he was my new, yet annoying and hot classmate. And yes, we had something going on but it wasn't like we were couple. It wasn't real. This guy was forcing this on me and achieved it by blackmailing me.

''Is it because he's here?'' I immediately realized who he was talking about. This made me annoyed, but still I felt my cheeks paint the shade of light red.

''You promised not to mention him. Why are you doing this?'' I hissed.

''Just tell me you don't want this and I'll stop.. or not.'' He knew I couldn't say or do anything. He knew yet he said this. If I insisted then he would tell Jack about my crush on him and that would completely ruin our really long friendship. I had known Jack ever since I remember myself, after all. Obviously, for me it was something more than friendship, but for him it's been us like two brothers. He would never look at me that way. Feel the friend zone?

Nick smirked, seeing as I would not be saying anything and started to touch my breasts, soon enough I felt him taking off my see-through cropped lace shirt, leaving me only in my black Calvin Klein bra and high waisted shorts as well as over knee socks and my favorite pair of my black velvet heels. I tried to hide everything I could with my hands.

''Don't hide. You're beautiful.'' He said as he took my arms away and kissed me everywhere he could. I realized my hands were reaching up to his head, searching for his chin to look in his eyes. For a second I actually thought his muscles tensed and his jaw as well,but then he suddenly looked me in the eyes and as I thought he was about to say something he started to kiss me as if that was something he needed not like he just did it for fun. I was once again having mixed feelings.

Schools bell rang and we both slightly jumped from the surprise.

''We'll finish later'' he said as he left me alone, on the roof. Not to mention - only in my bra and the rest.

Could I get anymore confused?

*****

''You kids should stop being late for the lessons. I don't know what you do and why it's like that and in fact I'm sure I don't want to know but next time you'll get detention," the teacher scolded us.

Right now I was so happy Jack wasn't my classmate anymore and he wouldn't know I was late, which meant no questions and him being suspicious over me. Also the fact that Mr.Robinson was a cool teacher and wouldn't give us detention really helped. But we really had to stop doing these things in school.

''Sorry, we won't be late again.'' I smiled at Mr.Robinson and knowing the affect I left on guys I knew he would let us go now. He smiled, awkwardly cleaning his glasses.

''You guys can go now.''

I started walking away and felt Nicks sneak arm around my waist.

''Could you please not do this in the school?'' I felt my voice crack by the way he made me feel. Jane, he's bad. He's bad for you, don't start having feelings for him.

''That's not up to you, remember?'' He smirked.

This had been going on since september and it was already april, so I was pretty aware that he doesn't care about my feelings.

I suddenly felt his arm leaving my waist, that part of my skin starting to feel cold.

I turned around in confusion. He just left as I saw Jack approaching. When Jack came by, Nick would always leave and that was way more confusing than everything else. Guys usually protect their girls, don't they? But then again, we were far from being official.

"I think, I'll ask her to be my girlfriend today and I need your help," Jack surprised me with his outburst.

''Aww, little Jackie wants to ask someone out," I teased, "anyways, what can I do for you?''

I did have a crush on him but he was also my best friend. I would never do anything to destroy this for him.

His happiness is my happiness.

***

''Lets just watch Hangover, it never gets old.'' I laughed as we couldn't decide what to watch but because we both loved Hangover, we just decided to go with it.

''Do we need popcorn or anything? I mean, I know summer bodies are nice but so are these brownies over there. Oh, and look at the tasty looking jelly beans!!'' I squealed looking at all the sweets on display.

''Screw summer bodies, if guys don't want us we still have each other, don't we?'' Elena grinned at me.

Yes, she was quite shy, but me and her had gotten quite close despite the fact that she was about to get the guy I loved since the day I realized that there were genders and he was the opposite of mine.

Not to offend people who like their own gender, I had nothing against same sex love, because it was still love. But I simply didn't feel that way about girls.

We picked up 2 huge boxes with caramel popcorn and a large cup of cola, also 4 pieces of brownies. This cinema was the best because it was the only one that had brownies in it. We sat in the middle row and laughed about how stupid our behaviour was. We weren't drunk, but we mostly looked like that if we were together.

It was the end of the movie and since we were the only people left in here, the show begun. On the huge screen appeared Jack.

''Hey, Elena. Be prepared to hear my long speech specially made for you. I hope I won't make this awkward for you. Thank you for the help, Jane, you're the best.'' Jack smiled in his most stunning smile, I could tell by his looks how much he was in love with this girl because he would never smile at me like that.Jack once again started to talk and I knew these words weren't for me, so I kissed Elena's cheek, wished her luck and left.

I knew what Jack will tell her while he's on the screen and when he will come in and bring her the big pizza box, she will open it and there will be words ''I know it's far too cheesy, but will you be my girlfriend?'' and then they will kiss and they will be an official couple. I knew because we had talked through this scenario around 10 times.

I started to walk and obviously it was raining outside. What a clichè. Even the sky was crying for me.

Walking somewhere, yet nowhere I realized I was in front of Nicks door. I knew I had to turn around. I must. Why the hell am I even here? It was pathetic. I could get any guy I wanted not to be a complete bitch, but the guy I wanted preferred another girl, and the guy I didn't want and who didn't want me was using me and I guess you could tell I was using him as well.

It was so fucked up. I turned around, heading towards my home, but then I saw Nick coming out of the grocery store that I was walking by. He looked at me confused but then it seemed like he realized something looking all over my body and soaking wet clothes, as he just didn't even make any rude remarks about this situation like he normally would of.

Just don't break in front of him, I told myself. He ran to me and I could see his face having worried expression.I could tell, but why?

''What the hell did he do to you?'' He was angry. His eyes analyzed my face and scanned my body with his hands, touching my freezing hands and lips as well as burning hot forehead and I felt my skin reacting to his touch, it suddenly felt warm even thought I was for sure freezing.

"You've got a fever. Come on, let's go to my place," he said, taking off his hoodie and putting it over me, as well as his diamond beanie and I knew he was about to pick me up.

I took a step back, scared of the way I felt. I was so utterly confused, I had no idea of where to even start.

''What the fuck am I doing? What the fuck are we doing? What's even happening between us?'' I took another step away from him, scared of the affect he left on my body.

He was looking at me in this concerned way. As if I was a diamond that could explode if he touched it. I hated it.

''Don't look at me this way. I'm fine, I don't need your help. And you're a jerk, you're using me. You don't even like m-'' He hugged me, as tight as he could, so that I could still catch my breath.

''Look, I can't promise to solve all of your problems, I just promise you that you won't have to face them alone.'' These words were everything I had to hear and more. He was being cheesy without being cheesy. I didn't know how he felt about me, he didn't know how I felt about him, but as for now, for each other we were all that we needed.

I wrapped my arms around him and let this jerk grow on me like no one had before.