Only Words

I don't know. Everytime I think of something the opposite can also be applied. Words like happy or sad are only circumstantial. They change depending on the day. I don't think words can describe me. Only experiences. 

The last minute trip to Disneyland because I miss it so much I almost have a break down. 

The way I wait for my Dog to poop as we walk for longer than I'd like. 

How I still play pretend as an adult.

The time and effort into sewing a costume just right and yet will never be fully happy with it. 

3am fast food runs when I can't stop craving those damn fries even though i shouldn't give in and it's going to make me sick. But I do it anyway.

The way my mood can swing in an instant and i try to control it but, it's still there and I can't help but lash out sometimes. 

The fact that i adore Movie scores more than the movies sometimes. Also more than regular music because i feel the emotions so much more and it's helping me controlling how I feel this time. 

Even these words cannot penetrate who I really am.