Once upon a broken haven

I hated the world today

you know like I sometimes do 

and my past where roaring in me ears

and in my guts and right there in the back of my head

exactly in that place that I hate so much 

and I looked outside the window 

in order to find the right words 

so that the world would make sense again 

and I clung to the sun you know

like I sometimes do, so that I can make pretty

because you know how much I love pretty

with tiny cabins and that yellow bus 

and pooh sticks 

remember the pooh sticks that never really existed 

I certainly do remember your laughter 

because poo. 

And the songs all those beautiful songs 

id sing them to you and repeat every single word

and nuance them so you'd understand that I saw you

then get insecure and ask you if it was good enough

and you'd tell me you loved it because it brought so much life 

I really hated the world today and you'd get it 

because it reminds me where I come from 

a world scattered with way to much grey 

and that light, the light that i would hold between my hands 

I never showed it to anyone but you 

and you'd admire its beauty 

and it would be our secret 

covered in blankets and warm embraces 

drowning in music 

like those ambient songs 

and I never once needed to sing 

or utter a tone not a single note

because I already knew

that you understood every single 

unspoken word 

that where flowing out of my fragmented soul 

and shattered pieces of a broken world 

I never once dared showing anyone else, 

and i'd cling to your smile 

and your green green eyes

and find peace 

in the warm embrace that where your heart 

knowing that hate 

would cave in

our secret haven 

if you can remember those words

our vows 

that day we melted 

from one to two

with a single and heartfelt

and simple 

I do