My Biggest Fear

I am afraid to trust. The moment you trust somebody, let them see who you really are, you're vulnerable. They could leave, they could turn on you, or they could break you. There's no longer a mask to hide behind. You're laid bare, and you can't hide. Trust is easily lost, and every time I trust, I get hurt. So I'm afraid, because what if I do trust someone? Will they turn their back like everyone else? It's better to keep people at a distance, to spare myself from the pain. Trust is a disease. You start to trust, and then you can only wait, helplessly, for the betrayal.