Always jumping over fences

Some are low

Some high

A never ending chase

They come from earth

They come from sky

Always jumping over fences

Too petrified to cry

As we sink we tell each other

"Maybe someday we will fly"

I was hurt when I was small

And now when little children crawl

Naive and unsuspecting,

I can't help recollecting.

I'm afraid of adults lusting,

Betraying all their trusting.

Innocence extinct or cracked

All by one repulsive act.

I am afraid to trust. The moment you trust somebody, let them see who you really are, you're vulnerable. They could leave, they could turn on you, or they could break you. There's no longer a mask to hide behind. You're laid bare, and you can't hide. Trust is easily lost, and every time I trust, I get hurt. So I'm afraid, because what if I do trust someone? Will they turn their back like everyone else? It's better to keep people at a distance, to spare myself from the pain. Trust is a disease. You start to trust, and then you can only wait, helplessly, for the betrayal.

Never will I ever forget the thing I dread,

Never will I ever stay put while waiting for the end,

Never will a year go by without the reminder,

Never a horrific stride of life let me be blinder

And let me forget the coffin, the end of all the ends

Where I am supposed to rest and winder,

But what if they are mistaken

and my life has not yet faded,

Awoken by a suffocation and jaded by despair,

Never will I want to be the finder of pre-hell

Don’t dwell and release me from the flame cell