What If?
I think of all the people I've ever met
I see their faces flash before my eyes
So many of them
no longer in my life
I’m left wondering
How their life is going
Left wondering
if they miss me
Or have they long since forgotten
I’m so use to people
Entering and exiting my life
That when someone leaves
I don’t think about it and just move on
Acting as if it doesn't bother me
When in actuality it does
I ignore the pain
Holding back the tears
It’s just another person gone
Or at that’s what I tell myself
This has happened hundreds of times
So why does it continue to hurt
every time it happens?
Is there something wrong with me?
Do I just get too attached?
As soon as I get attached
they leave
I guess a long term relationship
Just isn’t for me
So I continue holding back tears
So I continue to ignore the pain
Wondering what if?
What if things were different?
What if they never left?
I think of all the people I’ve ever met
Their faces flashing before my eyes
What if?
What if?
What if?