i dont feel good.

it could be

because i didnt eat

that much today:

not much of an appetite

to keep my going

keep me focused

keep those grades up

in chem where theyre slipping

or maybe its

somatizing

something mom told me about

a big word that means

"youre stressed and youre bodys hurting itself"

so whats the use of cutting or drugs then

when your body can just

self-destruct all on its own

your bomb-vest wasnt strapped on

tight enough

and your boat capsized

you sank into

the bits of inky tar despair

grabbing my ankle

and dragging me down with you

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