unforgettable

I catch my breath every time I'm with you. I'm sitting behind you, hanging on to the bars because I'm too shy to drape my hands around your middle, fit my body snugly into yours and I remember you telling me that we fit because we are made for each other. Every single time the wind ruffles your hair, sunshine bouncing off your brown curls which look so golden when the rays of the sun touch your face. I'm jealous of them for a moment but then I remember how tight you hold on to me at night and I remember how you press your chapped lips to the cross around your neck that I gifted you. I remember how you need me and want me. I remember I have you. When you're riding the bike, a jaw breaking smile is pasted on your face, you're so happy, euphoria leaking out of you and seeping so, so deep into my bones. I love the feeling of your soft lips pressed against mine when you step out of the shower, water dripping from your hair onto our faces and I love you. I tell you I love you and when you say it back, my heart skips a beat and I can't breathe. I always wonder how I even breathe when I'm with you because I can't. Then I remind myself that without you, the walls close in and I can't breathe. Only when I'm with you, I gasp, I heave, I respire, I pant, I breathe. I'm you and you're me and we're us. Codependent, fucked up and alive.