Almost Lovers and Forgotten Friends

To the bestfriend I had-

I loved you more than anyone on this earth. Together we were one and let me tell you what a rush-of-a-feeling that was. We came in two's, rarely alone. We were the meaning of friendship; you felt my heart ache, my joy, my depression and my love for life. We were infinite. To the bestfriend I had- I adored you and everything you did, I looked up to you. When my life was in pieces yours was together and it gave me hope I'd have what you had one day. I'd see life the way you did.

& now I feel desperate for your friendship, I'm yearning to be apart of your life again. I'm envious of the people who reach out to you because I'm not one of them. I miss you more than ever and will continue to do so. With a heavy heart and tears in my eyes I'm rooting for you from the sidelines now with a glimmer of hope that some day I'll be rooting for you right next to you again.

To the almost lover-

Heart pounding, butterflies fluttering, the taste of copper on my tastebuds, everything coming to a quiet hum with your presence, my skin jumping when you touched me. You were a whirlwind of emotions and I felt it all- WE felt it all. Fiery red burn of anger but also desire. The cold desolate blue of loneliness. The aura of bright yellow for the light we brought out of each other. The connection that was indestructible, or so we thought. To the almost lover that wanted everything but a bad time with me. Envisioning the house and kids was a favorite past time. But one of us saw it clearer than the other. We took a turn for the worst. We tried to push our problems up the hill but it was just too heavy to hold. Now's the time to let it slide. I want you to experience good and I know you will. And one day the hate for me will leave your heart and I will be nothing but Veronica. I've taken a few losses, but this one is one for the books. I long for the day I can look at you and not feel at a loss.