Not like me...

People don't know this about me, and they would argue against it

but I have had years of practice in hiding this thing about me

This flaw of mine, I became aware of it when I was in grade school

My social inept-ness...I was never like the kids in school

always by myself - weird as I had friends, one or two very close but that was it

I was a bit socially awkward. And here is the deepest part of this,

I take people for their word. I expect it as I hold myself to my word when I say it

so it has made me a bit wierd to be around. When someone says "let's do lunch"

I'm there with my calendar and ready to plan. I can't help it

I am sure I put people at ill ease when I start making plans when they were merely

just trying to be nice.

So this social in-eptness has made me question those around me

I no longer get upset when someone doesn't show after making plans

I no longer get upset when they don't call when they say they will

I just let it go as they are not like me...

When I call you friend, I mean it and you will be entitled to all that that means

When I say I love you, it will be from the flame that is burning so bright and so deep

that you will feel the warmth just standing next to me...

So, I have learned to mask this flaw of mine. So I can fit in, with those different from me

So I can socialize outside of the voices in my head.

With those, living and breathing...

Not like me...