Falling Again Off the Edge.
I watch as my life pass by me.
The most I can remember is being full of fear or isolating myself from everything including myself.
I couldn't trust anyone I couldn't trust myself.
Afraid I leave astray so many around me.
I try to get this thought out my head but like a repeat nightmare it would not go away.
Just one bad word it all it takes just one different fate and I'm shatter in pieces.
On another side the same goes and new hope I am introduce.
Although now it so hard to fine something good or true in this world we live in.
It seem like everywhere you turn cruelty and fear stares you right in the face.
Sometimes it even punch you.
I am coming from a broken but yet slowly healing
But I fear that I will know only shatters, for the world seem to twist things and my own gullible open mind self would be the cost of my own destruction and the destruction of my love ones.
Oh dear friends if you hear me now please know that I am very sorry for all the things I cost you.
I'm sorry I ever cross path with you in this game call life.
I'm sorry I couldn't be better.
I'm sorry.. I'm sorry..
I fine myself again back to having hope but as soon as something dark enter my path either from myself, others, or life itself I easily can go completely dead.
I'm not emotionally stable at this moment I'm not sure where I'm going with this.. I want to have a positive affect I want to feel love just as much as I give.
Oh fear why do you stop me why do you intend to make my life miserable?
Why do I continuely let you win?
Am I to ever break from your grasp?
Am I prepare to do so? I think not.
I am just trying to make it through the night.. I'm just trying to make it through the day.
I am just trying to make it through life.
But truth be told aren't we all?