When I Close My Eyes...

When I close my eyes, I see what I need. I see what I want. When I close my eyes, my life is perfect. There is no drama, no sadness, no death, no deadlines. Just you. When I close my eyes, I see you. I see all that I want in life. I see all that makes me really and truly happy. When I close my eyes, it doesn’t matter where I am or who I’m with. All that matters is you. All I can think of is you. When I get the chance to relax, my thoughts go immediately to you. I think I may revolve around you. It’s so weird not having someone in your life in any way and then the next minute, you don’t want to live a second without them. I look forward to seeing you every day. You are the highlight of my days. I don’t know what I’ll do when I don’t have you anymore. I’ll probably just go back to how it was before. I’ll probably just be sad again. I don’t want that. I may be becoming too reliant on how happy you make me. What will I do when I am cut off?

When I close my eyes, I see all these questions and more. But I’m choosing to ignore them. I’m choosing to be happy while I have the opportunity because who knows if I will ever find anyone who can make me feel like this again. Thank you for just being there. That’s all I need from you to make me smile. Just your presence. It’s like you have this glow surrounding you that I am unable to get enough of. I can’t think you enough for being there for me. There is nothing I can see when I close my eyes but you. That is the complete truth. We aren’t perfect, but we are the best I’ve ever had, and the best I think I ever will have. I don’t want to worry about the future. I’ve spent so long doing that. I’ve spent too long looking past what is right in front of me just to be able to see what comes next. I don’t want next anymore. I want right now. I want to enjoy every second, every moment. The people we love have the greatest power over us. You can hurt me. No-it's more than that. I think you have the ability to destroy me. I know that isn’t good. I know I shouldn’t be putting my happiness in your hands, but for now, I want to. I don’t think I’m going to regret this at all. I think it will be hard for me in the end, but I know everything will have been worth it. For now, I can smile every time I close my eyes and see your face.