I close my eyes and see

a white gem against black night,

a lifeless shadow on my wall

as I sift eyes through scattered bones.

A roadblock of time has elapsed,

lingering void handcuffs my soul,

faded life lost in eternal bloom,

black ice runs cold through veins.

Dark wolf mourns in broken howls,

silhouettes where life once blossomed,

perfume dissipates into untouched air.

Dittoed clouds lose their silver lining,

black rocks of death signal twilight

onyx rides on ruby bark of remembrance

as she dies in a sob of last refrain.

I touch her name with futile fingers,

ingrain her essence into my heart.

I weep finality of a closing teardrop as

she flies freely and soars high,

last whispers have ticked, silence is nigh.

We lie down, connected by earphones. Enveloped by darkness, by music.

She tells me, “close your eyes.”

-----------------------------------------“why?”

-------------------------------------------------“just do it.”

“…”

“…”

“…”

“what do you see?” she breaks the silence.

“nothing.”

----------- “What colors do you see?”

---------------------------------------------“darkness”

-------------------------------------------------------“Color”

“...”

“...”

“Dark Red… faint gray… and white.”

She gently covers my eyes with her hand. Her touch startled me because I softly shivered. She asks, “How about now?”

“Black… a blob that faintly flashes gray and white.”

She uncovers my eyes. I still feel the faint warmth of her touch.

She tells me, “Rub your eyes.”

I rub them.

“what do you see?”

“... a swirl… swirls… swirls of checkboards…”

“rub harder”

As I rub harder, I tell her what I see, “white...white with random black shapes.”

“What do the shapes remind you of?”

“...”

“You can tell me.”

“a closed door.”

When I close my eyes, I see what I need. I see what I want. When I close my eyes, my life is perfect. There is no drama, no sadness, no death, no deadlines. Just you. When I close my eyes, I see you. I see all that I want in life. I see all that makes me really and truly happy. When I close my eyes, it doesn’t matter where I am or who I’m with. All that matters is you. All I can think of is you. When I get the chance to relax, my thoughts go immediately to you. I think I may revolve around you. It’s so weird not having someone in your life in any way and then the next minute, you don’t want to live a second without them. I look forward to seeing you every day. You are the highlight of my days. I don’t know what I’ll do when I don’t have you anymore. I’ll probably just go back to how it was before. I’ll probably just be sad again. I don’t want that. I may be becoming too reliant on how happy you make me. What will I do when I am cut off?

When I close my eyes, I see all these questions and more. But I’m choosing to ignore them. I’m choosing to be happy while I have the opportunity because who knows if I will ever find anyone who can make me feel like this again. Thank you for just being there. That’s all I need from you to make me smile. Just your presence. It’s like you have this glow surrounding you that I am unable to get enough of. I can’t think you enough for being there for me. There is nothing I can see when I close my eyes but you. That is the complete truth. We aren’t perfect, but we are the best I’ve ever had, and the best I think I ever will have. I don’t want to worry about the future. I’ve spent so long doing that. I’ve spent too long looking past what is right in front of me just to be able to see what comes next. I don’t want next anymore. I want right now. I want to enjoy every second, every moment. The people we love have the greatest power over us. You can hurt me. No-it's more than that. I think you have the ability to destroy me. I know that isn’t good. I know I shouldn’t be putting my happiness in your hands, but for now, I want to. I don’t think I’m going to regret this at all. I think it will be hard for me in the end, but I know everything will have been worth it. For now, I can smile every time I close my eyes and see your face.

 

I'd like to say that I see a whole new entity of my own design... populated with the most complex of characters ever seen, in a setting of hither to unknown dimension, & varied natural formation; cityscapes that beguile & intrigue just in their very own description...

But that's not it. I close my eyes and see... as if an empty auditorium... with some dark silent proscenium... A shady atmosphere of baited-breath-anticipation, & my own growing corner-to-corner apprehension... what is to appear? There is nothing here.

Then suddenly... rapidly approaching distant footsteps... anxious whispers... something behind the scenes. A heavy curtain of responsibility... suggesting this very next moment...

is entirely up to me

#WhatDoYouSeeWhenYouCloseYourEyes #Challenge